Noisy Silence

I...

Never thought I

Could get through this.

I...

Never thought I

Would live through this.

Why...

Did I have to live through 

Losing all of this?

Why...

Oh why...

My anxiety’s kicking;

Been randomly triggered.

Don’t understand what life brings.

You give and You take,

Already knowing my fate;

Why put me through 

The drama of it all?

The silence night brings 

Also delivers the voices;

So loud they cannot

Be ignored.

I’m losing my mind

If I don’t loosen my mind;

Can’t keep self-medicating 

To block it all out.

Cause some of this noise...

I need to hear,

Loud and clear.

And some of this noise...

Will make me face reality,

Loud and clear:

While I go through 

This life by day,

Having gone through 

This death by night,

Just know that I may

Never look like what

I’m going through.

My filters and profiles

May never reveal

My noisy silence.

While you go through 

This life by day,

Having gone through

This death by night,

Just know that you may

Never look like what

You’re going through.

Your filters and profiles

May never reveal

Your noisy silence.

While they go through 

Their life by day,

Having gone through 

Their death by night,

Just know that they may

Never look like what

They’re going through.

Their filters and profiles

May never reveal

Their noisy silence.

We’re not as alone

As we may think.

Buried by walls,

Closed off by gates.

Doors locked up

With keys thrown away.

Been ignoring too long 

The knocking on the

Other side with

The still constant voice

Saying...

“Hey...”

-J. Doeson