Needing sleep: from resisting it to embracing it

Kiddo was home with me yesterday. He was sick. Stomach, cough, fever.

And I was exhausted.

I had chained a few bad nights of sleep. Could have been the coffee, could have been the excitement around my Venting Journal, could have been other thoughts that have been swirling in my mind.

But there was no mistaking that I was in L3 - Conflicted State.

Everything was difficult.

I couldn't do much.

And I could hear my old thought pattern seeping in.

Uggh, why me? Uggghh, you see I'm useless, I gotta pick myself back up.

A good combo of "woe is me" and "let me be really hard on myself" which, for me are tell tale signs that I'm in my lowest state.

So, I decided to update my thought pattern.

I asked myself "What do I need right now?"

I had a hard time hearing my intuition, my mind felt so cluttered. So I actually took out my Venting Journal to help clear my mind.

There were several rounds of venting, and then this came up:

It was clear, the day was going to be a rest day, whether I resisted it or embraced it.

So I embraced it.

We went out for a slooooowwww snowy stroll.

Then I came back home and put a perfectly cheesy Christmas movie. I even was laughing about half way through. Kiddo enjoyed it too, he didn't fight it too hard.

As I had intended, I had no afternoon coffee and we started kiddo's "dodo time" at 5:30 pm. Record early in our household.

It helped.

Today, I'm feeling better. I'm back in L2 - Autopilot State feeling productive and working on finding my alignment, one moment at a time.

9 coaching's 3x3 framework

Sometimes, what we want, what we do in alignment, still manages to push us too far and we feel exhausted. L3 - Conflicted State happens, we can't get away from it. It's part of our growth and learning experience. Like I like to say, "new level unlocked!".

However, what we can do is to move away from being really hard on ourself and start embracing our L3 - Conflicted State and learning from it. This way, our lows don't last as long and don't go as low.

The Venting Journal is a great starting point and is a helpful tool to pour all of your thoughts out. This is especially helpful for all those moments you're telling everyone else you are "fine", but deep down, you can feel the overwhelm starting to seep in. It's now available on Etsy!