It was a necessary break....

I hope you are all well and staying safe. Lockdown and these whole uncertain periods brought about a weird and different change in our working environments. Most of us studying in colleges had to move back to their houses; people working around different cities were isolated and confined. However, unprecedented the change was, it always happens. For me, I was at home after for such a long time after about three years, with each of the winter vacations of 2016 to 2018 spent working with my formula student team on-campus, summers were the same, I worked through two internships across two different continents. I realised a lot had changed; I no longer knew the connections to fill up water tanks up the roof, my forever beautiful Grandma had got old, she could no longer run behind me as fast as she used to. There were more houses around, but my room was still the same, my mom preserved each of the memories. Home has always been a place for me to restore, to realise everything wrong and correct it all. The first two months, spent me doing nothing, just a few courses slowly. I hated wasting so much time, but now it occurs to me, for it all to be essential, it was a necessary break, for me to heal and learn. I know it sounds not such a cool thing to do, but most of the times it is needed. In running from one internship to another, I never realised I needed a break to re-think, and this lockdown just gave me that. It is not always like sitting for an hour each day and introspect, it is more random particularly for me, and slowly I realised the direction in which I wanted to move ahead, things I wanted to learn. I planned up things for a week in advance with deadlines and slowly the time around the last month feels like a lot has passed, and it is a good feeling. It is simple I know the world outside is bad, but I cannot change it, so why sit around hours scrolling through news and be sad, when I can do something more satisfying and productive.