Navigating the Depths: A Personal Journey Through Depression

Depression is a journey I've been on for nearly two decades, a path marked by highs and lows that have shaped the core of who I am. It's not just a statistic; it's a personal battle that many, including myself, fight quietly. According to the American Psychological Association, one in every ten men in the US experiences depressive episodes, yet only one in four seeks help. I've been one of those statistics, and I'm here to share my story.

My journey with depression began as a teenager when I started experiencing sleepless nights, a persistent sense of melancholy, and an overwhelming anxiety that hindered my ability to focus. A car accident worsened these symptoms, leading me to withdraw from social interactions. It was then that I took my first step toward seeking help, quietly embarking on a journey of medication and therapy, known only to myself and my parents.

Studying psychology later in life, provided me with insights into the complexity of depression, its origins, and potential treatments. Naively, I assumed this knowledge, in combination with the different therapeutical exercises would be enough for me to cope with it. Yet, I continued to face depressive episodes, varying in intensity.

Post-graduation marked the darkest chapter of my journey, where tears flowed daily, started experiencing self-hatred, and isolated myself from even my inner circle. Suicidal thoughts haunted my mind until a moment of clarity led me to seek professional help. Through medication and therapy, I emerged from that abyss, promising myself never to go that deep into darkness again.

This doesn’t mean that depression has gone away. In fact, I now know I will likely live with it for the rest of my life. Nevertheless, I’ve been seeking help every time I feel I am falling into a depression again. Life events, both joyous and challenging, have triggered its resurgence, from marriage to living in a new country, and even the impact of the pandemic.

So, why am I sharing this deeply personal journey? Admittedly, it's not something I typically discuss, but that very hesitancy pushed me to open up. I want others, especially men, to know they are not alone. Society's expectations of strength often force us to wear masks, fighting our battles in silence. But I've learned that facing depression alone is not the path to healing.

I share my story with you, whether we've met or not, to let you know that you don't have to navigate this journey alone. I may not be a counselor or therapist, but I can offer a listening ear without judgment. My experiences are yours to draw upon as you seek the professional help you deserve. Let's break the silence together.