My Testimony -Who turned out the Lights!!- April 10, 2016

Was asked to re-post this.

This is according to what I was told about what happened to me and what ensued up until I regained conciseness 2 -1/2 months later…. so, here... we... go!

3am on the morning of Sunday, April 10th 2016………Ok, wait…. Let’s roll the time back to Mid-June 2015. I worked 12 hour shifts at TI (Texas Instruments) Dallas, Texas. During the time of Mid-June 2015, I begin to research the meaning of different scripture’s (Biblical translations of all languages plus kmt or Kemet writings) during slow times (I would be in tears constantly while writing), the more I searched, the more fear I developed of my “Creator “(My Lord) and I was questioning why his son, the savior Yahushua (Jesus) died a criminal’s death for all of our sins past and present on a wooden cross and also during his departure from this sinful world…. He was gracious enough to leave us a helper (the Holy Spirit). I had finished writing and started recording these affirmations at home, I only finished recording 6 months (January thru June). But, I had written 12 months (365 days) of affirmations, with not 1 affirmation being the same. (To date, 700 plus and counting).

I know, I know, you say yeah, we know all about that. But, check this out…. here’s another thing that happened to me. I started writing daily affirmations (My daily thoughts of meditation). After every affirmation, I was somehow directed to scripture (in all different languages mentioned) that identified with every affirmation. During this same period, I began to grow a beard, side burns and all (I was always clean shaven and did not really like hair all over my face), but here I was growing a beard. People I saw that knew me asked…. why the beard? My response was….” I’m writing these affirmations and can’t shave until I’m finished. Time passed and before I knew it…. 2016 had arrived, January 1, 2016 my birthday, 61 years young and feeling good!

I still had my home, health and just getting back on my feet from a spousal separation (After 6 years of marriage, life just didn’t work out between us). Like I said, life was going well…. going to work, the gym and then home…. that was basically my routine and I was happy with that, no drama in my life. Hey, I have always been a gym rat, had to give up most of the sports that I played in the past but I still had my weights I lifted 3-4 times a week along with swimming, hitting the heavy bag and shooting range (when finances allowed). Ok, still…. I was writing these affirmations and researching like crazy …. so much that I could hardly sleep (this was from mid-June 2015). By mid-March 2016, I had finished! 12 months (365 days) of affirmation, with not a 1 affirmation being the same…. Now what?

I’m going to take another step back…. right before thanksgiving of 2015 I tore my rotator cuff in my right shoulder lifting weights, but did not go to the doctor, just kept lifting (my excuse; can’t miss work or my workouts). Yeah I know, Knuckleheaded…right? Well by the end of March 2016, I was in extreme pain, it felt like King Kong had gave me a straight hard jab in the shoulder “Oooouch! Oh, I was ready to go to the doctor now (half smile). Doctor visit Friday April 7th 2016…. received a prescription for pain pills and referred to an Orthopedic Surgeon, appointment scheduled for April 12, 2016. Friday night April 7, 2016…. EXTREME PAIN!!!

Took a dose of 2-50mg hydrocodone twice a day, NOT HELPNG…. can’t go to work or to the gym. My entire body was in PAIN, I’ve had a lot of injuries in the past (2 broken fingers, right hand…. dis-located left elbow…. dis-located left shoulder…. both knees scoped…. broken nose twice…. Concussion(s)…. right big toe crushed……L4, L5 disk displacement, Yep…. I’m a bit hard headed and always fought to see how much pain I could take) so I know pain but this was pain that I had never been introduced to so I had to make a business decision, I was going to see that surgeon.

Little did I realize that…. My whole body was in pain and breaking down but I was focusing on my shoulder. All day pain on April 8 thru part of the day April 9, 2016…. then the pain just stopped throughout my entire body, unbelievable! So the knucklehead that I was (Yep, you guessed it) I went to the gym that afternoon, felt great afterward. Around 9pm that night, the pain started to return…… Oooooh Boy!!! That’s was the last thought I remember having. I awoke after 2-1/2 months from being in a coma in the first of 3 care facilities that I would stay in. Now I’m going to take you on this wild journey that was explained, ready…. here we go!

-The Night/Morning the Lights went Out!!-

I was found by my ex-wife (we had dinner that evening because we're tight like that and I had been dealing with extreme pain issue’s) passed out in the master bathroom by the closet, water was everywhere, I had fell on the toilet and crushed the entire unit all the way to the floor! She said that she got me up (with my help, I’m a big guy) and I immediately grabbed my gym bag and said “we have to get out of here before those people chasing me get here”.

Now it gets real…. I was admitted to Methodist Hospital, Richardson Texas. Something had started attacking my lungs and heart over a matter of hours and was growing rapidly (to this day they do not have a name for it so they called it pneumonia…. Huh, right?). Emergency surgery…. I had to be put in an induced coma to keep me from moving. Now the call went out to everyone in my phone contacts, I mean form Plano, Texas to my family in Oklahoma City to associates in Macau China to Melbourne, Australia. My heart was operated on twice within 10 days, I had all 3 valves replaced (so it was said that “technically”, I died twice in 10 days), had over 15 mini strokes on the left side of my brain, they had to remove my right eye due to the rapid spread of glaucoma, my right leg was swollen 3 times its size with blood clots. During my time in the gym, I had developed my body so that 1 was 250 lbs. of muscles….5% body fat, ripped.

They tried to insert PICC Lines into my shoulder, bent them all (over 3 times) … to much muscle mass. My family came down to Dallas Texas from Oklahoma City was told that we don’t know if he is going to make it and if I live, if I live I will be a vegetable with no memory of my past life and will need help with everything.

-The Aftermath-

I woke up in the first care facility not knowing what was going https://www.dhirubhai.net/redir/general-malware-page?url=on%E2%80%A6%2eit was like I fell asleep and woke up the next morning in a strange place with all these tubes and wires coming out of my body…. weird. June 2016, The first person I saw (looking to my left) was my brother Rock, no one else, when I looked to my right…. wait a minute, I can’t see to my right (what’s up with that)!

I couldn’t ask questions because I had a tracheostomy tube coming out of my throat (first thought, lost my voice….. that can’t happen because “My Voice is my Signature”). Next thing…. where the heck is my right leg! I can touch it with my hand but I can’t feel it throughout my body! Seems as if my brother could read my thoughts, he just held my hand, smiled and I could read his mouth saying “I told them you would come back, now go back to sleep. The drugs kicked back in and I was out again. Oh, by the way…. While I was out, in limbo, dead or whatever you want to call it, I saw no light, no nothing and knew nothing. Bottom line, I had canceled Christmas! If you get my drift?

The next time I woke up, and was out of ICU and into the first of 3 care facilities. There were friends and family in my room, it was like a mini convention in there. They seemed to be organized and well-rehearsed on who was going to tell me about certain parts of my ordeal. I was told about my death, 2 heart operations, 3 new heart valves and blood clots in my right leg. They said they were shown movie pictures of my body/brain fighting of the strokes I was having (every time a stroke would develop, my body/brain would fight and dissolve it…. amazing! I could not stand up because I could not feel my right leg plus (from blood clots), I had a great loss of memory (from over 15 mini strokes). Soon I was moved from the first care facility to another hospital (Medical City Dallas) to have my right eye removed, from there I was moved to the second care facility (Kindred Health Care) to begin rehab therapy. There, the tracheostomy tube was removed and I had to re-learn how to swallow, walk, talk, tie my shoes, shave, brush my teeth, eat and just about everything it takes to be self-sufficient, even sneezing was a mental challenge (like being an adolescent and starting all over again). The physical therapy at this facility was off the chain, they allowed me to push myself as hard as I wanted to, I left there being able to walk with a walker.

July 2016, I was moved to my third care facility for more intense therapy. While at this facility I thought I was dreaming…. A voice in my mind asked, “Do You Know Who I Am” over and over…finally I said YEAH, God…. because I looked around the room and my brother was watching Sports Center so I thought It was the medication messing with me, then the voice said “What I have done is sat you down, shut you down and isolated you until you know who I am”. The next day I told my brother to go to my house and bring my bible! Well, you know how we are when “Creator” scares us, we follow thru but we don’t follow thru.

I didn’t open that bible once because it only happened once and without knowing, I did not answer the question correctly. It had to be the medication…. plus, they told me that I was strong enough to be going home soon!

My thinking was, I’m going home (I had been away from home for 4 months) I’ll get people to take me here and there.

July 31, 2016…. released to go home! Great to be home although I was using a walker…. I’m ready to go! The thing is, the only place people would take me was to the doctor and back……man! Then it happened again…. That voice, I could hear it as clear as water from a dripping faucet “Do You Know Who I Am” over and over. This time I didn’t get a chance to respond because I could not utter a word, it was like I was stuck! The voice said “What I have done is, sat you down, shut you down and isolated you until you know who I am”. This time in my response, I answered correctly…. saying, “Yes Father, yes Lord”, You see, in my first answer,

I applied the wrong title to my Lord, my Father (Read all of Isaiah 45, but turn your attention to versus 4-9). Check it out; 4. For the sake of Jacob my servant, of Israel my chosen, I summon you by name and bestow on you a title of honor, though you do not acknowledge me. 5 I am the Lord, and there is no other; apart from me there is no God. I will strengthen you, though you have not acknowledged me. 6 So that from the rising of the sun to the place of its setting

people may know there is none besides me. I am the Lord, and there is no other.

7 I form the light and create darkness, I bring prosperity and create disaster;

  I, the Lord, do all these things. Bam! Have you ever read this part of Isaiah? If so, have you ever consulted the Lord about this meaning during your quiet time with him? You really need to!

Now this is not a feel good story, this is a Mercy, Goodness and Grace story about the “Creator”

my Lord. Notice this is the first time I have rightfully mentioned my Lord the “Creator” of all things, throughout this whole ordeal? That’s because in my selfish and unknowledgeable mind… and all that I had been through, I still would not allow myself to recognize who’s I was and who he is. Oh, by the way…… just FYI, I’m here to tell you that the “Creator”, my Lord God’s Mercy, Goodness and Grace Hurts! By my birthday, January 1, 2017 I was feeling much better, walking with a cane and not a walker (when I was released, I developed my own physical therapy workout routine). By February, was Back in the hospital 3 times …. 2 colonoscopies and 1 because my blood count dropped to 4.5. Sold my home July 31, 2017 and divorced…. 1 year after my release, now walking without a cane, working out, taking care of myself and enjoying life, I have a few glitches here and there, but no complaints. First and foremost enjoy sharing my testimony about the awesomeness of the “Creator” my Lord all the time knowing who he is and why the “Creator” my Lord allowed me to live…. yeah I said me because I am claiming the “Creator” to be my own! See I know I can do this because I know my Lord is so wonderful, there’s enough of the him to go around…. After all he is, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnibenevolent, Omnipresent, a lot of Omni’s…. the “Creator” my Lord is everything to me!

To all who hear or read My Testimony…. I realize now that the “Creator” my Lord’s Mercy, Goodness and Grace is painful because he will let you see who you and the “Creator” really are when you are being re-fashioned into who’s you were meant to be. Like Grand Pa Duke Burris told me long ago “When your maker comes for you…. you can’t fight it, what’s in you will come out of you sooner or later” …. and he also added, “Junior, as long as you live… know that; You don’t know what you think you know” and there will always be new horizons waiting for new innovations in your life and for mankind.

Yes, this ordeal is true, my medical dossier is 270 plus pages chronicling every day and every procedure. Since July 31, 2016 (my release from my last care facility) I have been in and out of hospitals…. Surgery for internal bleeding, the insertion of this and another removal of that. The battle is long but steady and to be honest…. It’s not more than I can bare. I continue to praise the “Creator” my Lord and only God.

I have been blessed with some wonderful people throughout my life…Angela D. Alexander

(ex-wife), she was there with me from the beginning and said she would be there until I was able to take care of myself, and she was. Mr. Tony Wise and Mr. Ken West were with me for a season and provided me with food and help with overwhelming bills and spiritual support, we remain Brothers to this day. Another brother (whom I call my Little Brother) that God blessed me with…. Adrian Scott, this brother is unbelievable, he’s there every day (and I mean every day no matter what) from the beginning to now. Mr. Gerald D. Lewis (my other brother, we grew up together in Okla. City. Gerald called and checked on me all the time while I was in the hospital and at home plus he spread the word about my illness to my classmates asking for their prayers. Gerald took me under his wing and neutered me spiritually, he helped me remember who I was and all of my classmates along with how I grew up. Mr. Kevin Berry (aka Boofer), calling and checking on me, helping with food and getting me to some of my doctor appointments. This next brother came into my life just recently, Mr. Charles Page…… I truly believe that the spirit led me to his bible study class (that’s another story in and of itself), praise God for brother Page’s teaching of God’s word. I was baptized on November 13, 2016 at The Greenville Church of Christ, Richardson TX. Today, I am living a wonderful life praising God and Christ, memory getting stronger and back exercising (on my good days) with full understanding of my journey (it’s not over). I would like to recognize others who contributed to my wellness and growth in my new life;

Adrian S. (Little Brother)                               Angela A. (Friend)

Allen G-A (Gramps – Son)                            Bernard H. (Brother - Friend)

Charles P. (Brother - Friend)                         Charles A. (Brother - Friend)

Denise H. (Friend)                                         DeWantea M. (My Nephew)

Gerald L. (Brother - Friend)                          Ken W. (Brother - Friend)

Kenneth W. (Brother - Friend)                      Kevin B. (Brother - Friend)

Kimberly G. (Friend)                                     Sade (God Daughter)

Loretta M. S. (God Daughter)                       Loran T. (God Daughter)

Rock (My Brother)                                        Richard Dent (Friend)

Tina C. (Friend)                                            Tony W. (Brother - Friend)

Also, a Big Thank You to All of my Doctors & Nurses & Methodist Hospital of Richardson TX, Medical City Hospital Dallas TX, Baylor Medical Hospital Plano TX, Kindred Care Facility Dallas TX, and Health South Care Facility Dallas TX.

Oh, it doesn’t end here…. August 18, 2018. My step son picked me up on the way to his wedding, this young man I helped raise from 9 years old and into manhood. The best kid I ever raised, never had to discipline him once. So we are about 10 – 15 minutes from our destination, setting at a crossroad…. the guy in the van to my right signals for us to come across, we pause and see there is no other traffic coming in the other lane so we proceed. As we clear the van, out of nowhere comes this car and they were up on use before we knew it…. When I looked to my right (turning my head because I only have a left eye), everything slowed down, I looked right at the woman and she looked at me as her friend on the passenger side was reaching to grab her for some reason and she said “Oh My God”! Then everything speed up and BAM! T-Boned on my side! They eventually got me out of the car, but no one was seriously injured, I thought. Told the police I was ok, made the wedding. Son got married and everything was well in the newlyweds lives.

Me, the next day I had to get myself to the ER., My head was throbbing, ringing in my right ear and extreme shoulder pains. I was diagnosed with a closed head wound (slight concussion), completely torn rotator cuff and strained neck muscles plus the ringing in my ears – a ruptured ear drum. So, I know The Lord God has a reason for me to still be here.

In closing, I now pray to the “Creator” my Lord by saying “I now know that…. No man or woman has what I want or need, because you have blessed me with the greatest gift of all…. LIFE”!

If there are any more blessings for me, please spread them among the ones mentioned here and others. In the near future, I will be sharing my “Daily Affirmations” with the world…… please keep me in prayer and may peace be unto you my brothers and sisters. All praises and glory be to our Lord & Father God (Yahweh), our Lord & Savior Christ Jesus (Yahushua) and the Holy Spirit. Amen!

- That’s My Testimony and I’m sticking to it…. But the “Creator” Lord God! -

Proverbs 16: 8-9

8 - Better is a little with righteousness….Than great income with injustice.

9 - The mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.

Clarence Crome Alexander jr “Alex”

P.S.- I ask the Lord for knowledge and wisdom in everything I do…. all day every day, now the phrase (“Be careful what you ask for”) is true. When you read and research the word(s) of the Lord that man has transcribed in different literature throughout history to benefit man and his control, you have to ask the Lord for knowledge and wisdom to differentiate from what is re-written by man as to what the Lord really want(s) you to do and/or know. The Lord obliged my prayer by giving me more knowledge and wisdom every day.

Wow! Since then, the Lord my only God has opened my mind, heart and eyes to the wickedness of this world…. By seeing all that was, is, what will be and is to come, everything hidden behind the scene where we are too busy with life to slow down and look at. My Brother, My Sister, it’s almost unbearable! So, understand…. You don’t know what you think you know!

I mean the true ways and all aspects of man’s ways. Some days, my mind is overloaded, but the “Creator” my Lord always sees me through it. You may think/feel that you know what’s going on around you…. Believe me, you really and truly do not know. You’re just like I was…. Going through life “Following every Amen” without realizing what you are agreeing to. Just because a man has a status, speaks eloquently and have many followers doesn’t mean that he is doing the “Creator” my Lord’s work. See what I said earlier about (Isaiah 45, but turn your attention to versus 4-9), now take the time to dig deeper down that rabbit’s hole, you will be blown away by what is being done to all of mankind. Remember, this is not about race, cultures, likes and/or dislikes… this is about The “Creator” my Lord! You better wake up and recognize!

Now this is my prayer before speaking The “Creator” my Lords Words:

My Lord and only God, I come before you in a humble manner…. To read your words in your light, I pray that you form my mouth so that I may speak your words correctly, open my mind's heart so that I may comprehend your words correctly and lock your true words away and open my heart and spirit so that I may receive the teachings of the Holy Spirit correctly…. these things I ask of you, by the blood of my Lord and Savior.... who sits at your right hand, your son, Christ Jesus, I pray…. Amen & Amen.

P.S.S.- Now I try to be like water and no matter the course…. I will make a decision.

Some say that indecision is the key to flexibility. In truth indecision’s will cripple and stop your progress in its tracks. I strongly insist that you be like water, just make a decision.

Have you ever known water not to have a plan? Not knowing which way to go?

To stop its flow and to think about what is next? To change its mind and doubt its course? Have you ever seen water not take the shape of its environment/container? Have you ever known it to not allow action from an outside force?

When water is still, it will stagnate, as you will when you sit, soak and sour. What does water do when it is confronted by a blockage? It finds another way. It roars over land and wears down mountains, it goes around the blockage, it overwhelms it.

Water makes its own path, as should you. Be strategic, have/make a plan. What will you do when confronted by a blockage? Do you stop or find another way?

Be like water and don’t struggle with decisions or indecisions, find another way to achieve what you want to do. If it is in alignment with your path and spirit, you will have other options to follow and you will see them.

- Inspired by…. By Bruce Lee & Chessie Roberts–

This is a “Special Edition” given to me through spirit during study and meditation;

"I am never without this; And he said, my child you shall abide by these words that I pour into you as I did to one of my prophets long ago; "Stop regarding man whose breath is in his nostrils.... For why should he be esteemed? He is not the Lord". (Isaiah 2:22)

Another spoken voice said; "I had found another who truly found me, and he spoke these words - Now listen, the one who has been humbled by the Holies of Holy - "Don't be in such a hurry to condemn a person because he/she doesn't do what you do, or think as you think. Remember, there was a time when you didn't know what you know today". – (Malcolm X)

Clarence Crome Alexander jr

-My Voice is my Signature-

" God has given me the ability to think abstractly,

compartmentalize things and bring them back

together in a logical order”.

#StayBlessedUpAndPrayedUp!!