MY PYCHOLOGIST SAID I WAS HIS BIGGEST MISTAKE

After having sex with me and verbally and physically abusing me for THREE YEARS my psychologist turned to me and said that I was his biggest mistake! He treated me as if it was all my fault, when he was the person in power. This retraumatized me all over again. It reminded me of how my mother would verbally and physically attack me when my father was having one of his psychotic episodes (my father was schizophrenic). When I would cry because I was so frightened she would scream at me for making her life harder!!!!!!!

Here is a poem I wrote this morning:

I was His Mistake

the hole in his plans

the broken brakes

his unzippered pants

the teeth didn't line up straight

a couple broke off

he looked like a jack-o'-lantern

wearing socks

I was a mirage

looking like paradise

in his garage

the crash and burn

bones and skull

now he's earned a room in hell