My irRegular Tuesday

JOURNAL PROMPT 1

They say it’s good to reflect on the days you spend, sometimes hardly noticing the changes and occasionally paying attention to each and everything that you even notice a slight change in the kitchen drawer.        

My day started well with the beautiful sunlight on my face. It was quite a busy day today — from running and ticking off one small item from the errand list to doing a bit of future tripping. I don’t know what or how I feel; but major portion of the day, I was feeling ‘meh’ and couldn’t point a finger at what was making me feel this way until the end of late evening. But I realized that I had been feeling ‘meh’ for a long now, just never able to understand the ‘why’ of it.

I think as a therapist, sometimes I also feel this emotion because of the work I do and the people I meet. But leaving the professional side aside, I decided to take a break from working, and now that I’m on a break — where I should be enjoying the small moments, I feel useless, unproductive, and guilty most of all. I feel as if I can do so much more but I don’t know if the time is right to focus on that.

But, I believe the best moment today was when I could feel my nose opening up and being able to breathe freely. Another best moment was hanging out with my family and enjoying the conversation. It felt as though my suggestions are of value. One of the worst moments was when I was feeling languished but I couldn’t figure out the why — which created a rift between my partner and me. But again, a happy moment was being able to figure out the ‘why’ and a baby step to not gloat.

I was reminiscing about an old conversation and I realized how much I wished to bring back that moment with my partner. And that’s what we decided on — to try and bring back a few old memories in the present moment.

I am starting this Journal Prompt Series to reflect on my days and also create a vision board. The reason is to be able to understand my reflections and what can be done about some of them, if not all.