This was my day on Saturday.....

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Trying to work on a project,

Instead of doing that I did all of these things:

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?? Cleaned my office desk (it was dirty and really needed a good clean)

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?? Re-organised my paper filing stacker thingy (if I don’t know where things are then I can’t find them easily can I)

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?? Did the ironing (those 4 items that I got the board and the iron and the extension lead out for really needed doing immediately)

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?? Messed around for about 20 mins on my email signature, changing the font, colours, size etc (very important job, as we all know how much time people spend reading them, and the change in colour would have made all the difference)

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?? Got sucked into my LinkedIn feed about 10 times (which is very important market research)

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?? Responded to lots of old emails I didn’t really need to respond to (but those people will have now got a reply from me, and that’s very necessary to my business growth)

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?? Did some online shopping for barefoot shoes (I’ve been planning to try them for ages now, and this will really help my feet)

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I started the project about 6 times, and each time got distracted onto something else, that as you can see, I convinced myself was super important and must be prioritised straight away!

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Eventually I did make some progress, but I wasted a good half a day doing all of the above before getting the task done.

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I knew I was avoiding doing the task,

I knew I was procrastinating,

But I didn’t really think too much about why I was avoiding it any further than just knowing that I didn’t really want to do it!

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So why?????????

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When I finally sat and thought about it,

And really probed,

And kept asking myself why,

And asking myself why really honestly,

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It was because I thought it would be shit!

It was a task that I had done before, but my brain was telling me that this time it wouldn’t be as good,

I would mess it up,

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When I asked why further,

I realise it’s because I was scared that other people would think it was shit,

That my clients would think it was shit,

And that they would wonder why they had spent money with me,

And maybe they would ask for their money back,

How embarrassing,

How humiliating would that be.

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Again, I kept probing,

But why,

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I’m comparing myself to others,

And concluding that they are so much better than me,

That they are more qualified than me.

That they would do a much better job than me,

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Why,

Because I’m not good enough!

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And there we get to it,

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Because I’m not good enough.

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Now the thing is, I knew what to do in that situation,

I knew how to help myself.

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I was able to get to the bottom of it,

I asked myself, hang on, is that actually true?

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I looked up at my positivity board and saw all the lovely things my clients, past and present have said about me.

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I reminded myself of the reaction my client had last time I did this task,

They loved it.

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So, I remind my brain that we have got this,

we have done it before,

we did a great job,

and I relax!

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Finally I was able to move forward with the task!

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Does anyone relate?