My dad

Today at 3:55 AM I lost you, daddy. Almost 5 decades of conversation, stopped at this one second when your heart stopped beating. At 3:55 I hugged you so hard for over an hour and I didn’t want them to take you from me. I can’t stop hearing your voice calling me eshykili, from when I was a baby. It’s an endearing way to say my name but it’s your endearing voice that makes it so special. I’m at yours and mom’s house looking at your thousand and thousand of books, the little statues that you collected from all over the world, your Viking photos and boats.

You were misunderstood sometimes, the way that genius mind is. A Genius chemist, who left his mark on the evolution of anti-aging, a genius human being, a Genuis dad, husband, and a genius lover. Lover of one woman from when you were ten. Your wife. Our mom. Lover of life and lover of your family.

You always felt the need to keep learning, to question everything, and never take anything for granted.

You taught me wisdom. I am who I am thanks to you.

Daddy, you gave me life and you were there every day, every step of the way.

You taught me to play chess, and to think differently you taught me to strategize.

And You knew everything.

No matter what the subject was you always knew so much about it. You loved history and Science so much and you loved your books. All million of them.

But more than anything you taught me to love with all my heart, the heart that right now is broken.

You showed me how to love a woman selflessly and truly be there for her.

You knew how to love unconditionally, love in its most pure, real way.

You loved me so much.

I love you even more and admired you my entire life. I really wanted to be like you even in the little things.

Your poems touched me in the deepest way.

And much like a poem, you didn’t say much when it comes to love, because you just love with everything you got.

You left us today but you will live in my heart forever.

I don’t know how to live without you daddy. I miss you so much. I have a huge hole in my heart and in the stomach today. I Don’t understand your death. How is it that life is so fragile, and one day without a warning, it’s all shattered into small pieces that only you piece them together in a lifetime journey. Where do I go from here, where do we all go. Daddy, my daddy, the only daddy I ever wanted and needed. I love you so so so so much daddy – you are my heart, my soul, my everything.