?? THE MOST REVEALING POST IVE EVER WROTE...

I came to Thailand carrying a lot of stress, fear & doubt around some issues happening in my life.

If I’m being 100% honest, I came to Thailand scared that something was wrong with me & my health and I was going to die unexpectedly.

I’ve literally been caring this thought and fear and anxiety in me for weeks.

If I’m being even more honest, I’ve been having these irrational thoughts that someone was going to kill or I would die, for the last 3 mos or so.

Here’s something else you should know as well...

The 3 mos prior to that, I found myself breaking down randomly throughout the week because I’d be so overwhelmed with gratitude b/c life has been SO good lately that I can’t even believe it.

But recently I just haven’t been able to sleep because I’ve been so scared that something is wrong with me and I’m going to die.

And I’m SO scared to die.

The first 3 nights here I paced my room, back in forth, in straight ANXIETY that my health has failed me out of the blue and I’m about to be one of those “crazy unexpected stories”

Unwilling to even say the words to myself because I’ve been manifesting at such an alarming rate, that surely is manifest this too.

But the more I tried to act like ALL the signs weren’t pointing to it, the more I started to believe they were.

Then the universe kept bringing up this word and people who’ve died from this and I began to think... “holy shit... this is going to happen.”

I FINALLY told someone here about these feelings the other day.

Then today happened.

I realized today, in LARGE part to @gerardadams & @nat_snacks, is that that irrational fear is actually my limitation from my subconscious ego.

I was telling myself without EVEN realizing “that if my life is this good, I’m surely going to die”

Subconsciously it’s the same “story” I’ve always told myself...

I don’t deserve to be happy & fully aligned.

My body is having some weird issues...

Nothing overly serious or new... but signs & “dots” that I connected to match the story I wanted to tell myself.

Yesterday Natalie unlocked me & Gerard activated me.

And I realized how RIDICULOUS I’m being.

It’s ABSURD to think my God would ever design sickness or disease or virus to wipe any of us out.

It’s my TOTAL belief that we can heal ANYTHING in our body with nutrition, mediation and BELIEF.

Today Marshal shed his skin & is moving into his ‘snake energy’ (more to come on this soon)

But just know this...

The Marshal that EVERY SINGLE ONE of you know...

Simply DOES NOT EXIST anymore.

When I arrive in San Diego in March 23rd, there are going to be sweeping changes to my life & my network.

Idc how long I’ve known you, how nice you’ve been to me, who you are...

IF YOU DONT SHOW UP TO PLAY ALL OUT, YOU’RE 100% OUT.

This doesn’t make you a bad person, or wrong, or less than, or ANYTHING negative...

It simply means I can’t vibrate at the frequency He intended me to, & when I let others rob me of that its literally a CANCER to my life.

You’re always welcome to come up to my lane, but I will no longer drive in yours.