May Mighty Motivation Newsletter

My wonderful clients have a number of things in common.

?They are all beautiful, inside and out.

?They are truly gifted in so many ways, ways the world needs right now.

?They have multiple talents.

?They are so clever.

?They are so special and continually amaze me.

?They inspire me.

?They are all stars in my eyes.

?Each and every one of them has a superpower to share with the world.

But sometimes, things hold them back and they:

• Fear being visible
• Don’t feel worthy enough or good enough
• Over think and worry what people think about them
• Suffer from self-doubt and comparison with others
• Feel the need to do everything themselves and are not able to ask for help
• Procrastinate
• Don’t look after themselves? and stay stuck
• People please
• Take responsibility for everyone's to do lists
• Self-sabotage
• Live life with anxiety, stress and worry
• Have perfectionist tendencies

I relate to every single one? of these challenges.? ? I am my client.? But in the future.

Or I thought I was.

I have suffered from all of those challenges that my clients talk about at the beginning of our journey together. I thought I had it all sorted and under 'control' and I had said goodbye to all of that negative chatter with my daily meditations, daily mindset work, visualisations, vision boards, exercise, affirmations and journaling and everything else in my toolkit,?all that wonderful stuff I talk about in my book.

But over the last few months, that 'control' stopped.? It completely ran out of steam. There was just nothing left in my tank.? That motivation that had kept me going for 5 years died. A part of me felt dead and numb.

Watching my darling father deteriorate and suffering the cruel and horrible disease that was Alzheimers took its toll, not only triggering a completely different type of grief that I had never experienced before,? but another situation had been created by me and my ‘control’ resulting in additional family friction that literally flawed me.

All those old negative feelings and emotions of not enoughness came flooding back.?

So I hid away, crippled with shame, my skin picking (dermatillomania) at an all-time high, with low self-esteem and rock bottom confidence.? I wasn’t walking my talk any more.? What would everybody think?

And there was me thinking, here at aged 53,? I had dealt with my wounds and deep trauma from my childhood and the past.

Nope. ? I had just buried it all.?

Always trying to save everybody else had become my way of numbing the things I wasn’t ready to face.

This time I couldn’t save my dad.

I shared with a friend how I was feeling and she referred me to her RTT practitioner and I then embarked on this incredible journey: it was a spiritual awakening.

The word “heal” kept on coming to me in my morning meditation, which along with exercise seemed to be the only thing that would anchor me daily and keep me from drowning in depths of doom.

Those who know me know that I love to research.? I need to make sense of everything, but this time I was going down a path that didn’t 100% make sense to me.

I started listening intently to “guidance”.? I 'knew' that this is what I needed to do.

And that guidance led me to experience two incredible psychic readings thanks to the same friend (thank you Roya), I attended a psychic medium workshop, discovered more about my past life/lives with an incredible mind blowing “Soul Contract Reading” with Valerie Wasch , enlisted an amazing Animal Communicator, Colleen Kersey (Animal Communicator) so I could understand my dog better and I very slowly started to see the light again and this time, an amazing different side to life that I had never 100% fully believed before, or understood or even wanted to understand.

It was mind blowing.??

I began to understand life’s purpose on a much deeper level.

And I would be happy to share more details about those experiences for anybody who would like to know more, perhaps a post for the future.

And then one day I was listening to a podcast and it was like a lightening bolt, the same lightening bolt feeling I had 5 years ago when I discovered Vision Boards for the first time and knew in my heart that this was a pivotal moment in my life and I could (and went on to)? have an incredible impact with sharing this incredible magical modality with hundreds of people and change their lives too.

And what I heard in that podcast was a sign and a deep knowing again in my heart that I needed to not only learn this method myself, but this modality was the gift that would help heal my wounds and deep trauma and I could then go on to share it’s magic with hundreds of people too.

I had been waiting for this sign. And here it was. And I was so incredibly grateful.

So, at the beginning of March I embarked on the start of my healing journey, to not only heal my own trauma wounds, but also learn a magical modality with the collective mission of “breaking the cycle of ‘not enoughness’ and self sabotage being passed down to our future generations by healing 10 million hearts so that more people can experience deeper levels of love, inner peace and success”.

And I slowly got better. And a huge thank you to the lovely people (you know who you are) that noticed me missing and reached out to see if everything was okay.

I am incredibly excited to be moving towards gaining my first certificate in this healing modality and have had the amazing and eye-opening opportunity over the last couple of weeks to get to practice this healing on individuals and seen the power first hand, as well as experience it myself - I wouldn't be writing these words right now without it.??

“Relief and a new lightness about life” are the initial results and I cannot wait to share more.

I truly believe that every part of our life is a lesson to learn from and gain wisdom from and share that wisdom with others where we can and here I am again learning more about our existence and the mind-blowing world we live in and how we can be of service to the world, but this time, finally, not to the detriment of our mental health.

I have loved slowly returning to working with my incredible clients, more recently focusing on what I love most in the world, the wonderful journey of holding their hand while they get out of the fog and unstuck, create a vision for their year ahead and start working towards achieving their newly realised goals, dreams and aspirations, finding excitement, confidence and hope in life again.

I cannot wait to add this incredible healing modality to my toolkit. So many more details to follow.

I hope my honesty will help others reading this right now.? Please don’t wait til you are 53 to properly heal the wounds you are trying to bury as they will come and bite you on the a*se like they did for me. Reach out for help. Here are a few resources that may help:

• Cruse Bereavement Support: https://www.cruse.org.uk/
• Mind – Mental Health Charity: https://www.mind.org.uk/
• National Domestic Abuse Helpline: https://www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk/
• Relate: www.relate.org.uk
• Samaritans: https://www.samaritans.org/
• The Mental Health Foundation: https://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/
• Women’s Aid: https://www.womensaid.org.uk/
• Young Minds: https://www.youngminds.org.uk/

The world needs you and your incredible gifts now.

If anything resonates in these words, I would love to talk to you about it.? Pop me a message if you have any questions and I look forward to hearing from you.

Much Love

Lara ??

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