Many times we just gulp words and prefer to be silent

Basically I'm a talkative person in real life. I may not seem like that online, but once I start talking, it takes a lot for me to shut up. I become silent for a number of reasons, either I'm upset, irritated, or angry. My silence affects many people, especially my parents. They're always curious to know why I'm silent. My thoughts are all over the place, I do a lot of thinking when I'm quiet, they either range from happy thoughts to dark thoughts. Honestly, it gets the best of me. That's when I write. I write my heart out. That's when I feel better.

I take a look over what I've written and it cheers me up. I feel my best writing is when I'm upset, the emotions are high, I'm more creative, and passionate about my work. I suppose my silence is my way to dealing with unwanted emotions. My thoughts flow like a waterfall over a deep crevice into the valley below. I imagine that I am achieving the tasks at hand virtually! I visualize my grand events for the day and see them getting done!

Interaction on social media is my breath. I am pretty silent when I am reading/ writing answers, likes and comments. All my energies are focused on putting my thoughts together from my past events, from the books which I have read in the past. My silence speak about my complete dedication, focus and commitment to the task at hand. Interpersonal interaction. If I have had a spicy interaction full of heated discussion with someone, I would remain silent. I am boiling inside, and my silence would anytime erupt like a volcano.

But I can remain calm and poised and my silence will speak for itself. This silence speaks for my hurt and disagreement. Often the opposite person may realize their mistake and turn the situation around. Mentoring/ counseling/ coaching someone: My silence is a long pause to enable the opposite person to clarify and express their thoughts so that I can give pointers for self improvement. While cooking I am all to myself and doing routine work. Some problems hover around in my mind.

This is always a great place and environment to think about this problem and emerge with one or more solution/s. Innovative ideas also evolve here. My silence in the kitchen is a ambient and suitable for self review.....so in a nutshell for me silence is a weapon and needs to be used carefully and silence means different things in different situations. This happened back in 2012 when I was shouting at my spouse asking for an explanation regarding something. We are both opposites. I keep yelling until I get a satisfactory answer, whereas she keeps mum however loud my voice is.

She probably uses this trick on purpose to provoke me more. But this time, she not only won the argument but also taught me a good lesson. I finally gave up on my shouting and kept staring at her in anger. What she did was unbelievable. She dropped a 1 rupee coin and a 100 rupee note on the floor; she said, the person who is worth nothing makes the maximum noise and that is the difference between You and Me, understood?

I become silent when I am exceedingly annoyed about something/someone or I have nothing worthwhile to contribute to conversations. I generally speak a lot. So when I'm annoyed and I become silent, the people let me be and continue their conversations with one another. I join in after sometime. When I have exhausted all topics to converse or my mouth starts to ache due to incessant chattering, I quieten up and turn into a good listener. This sort of behavior bemuses people. Cheers!