MAKE THAT JUMP

Grudges. Issues. We have a bad history. What do you think is the common point between all of these? The common point here is it’s all in the past. You hold a grudge against some one because of something that has already happened. You have an issue with someone or the other way round because of something that has already happened . Can you change what happened in the past? No. Can you control how it affects you? No. Can you control what you choose to do? YES!!

It is easier said than done, to act in a mature way, to handle a situation like a rational adult when you feel like you are out of control and losing your mind over something. You know your intentions but you keep letting your thoughts and worst nightmares overshadow reality and say things you don’t mean and do things you don’t want to. We overthink, exaggerate and blow things out of proportion. Our mind runs wild in different directions. You sit still, look around and feel like the whole world around you is spinning, everyone is running, you are still but there is this weird sensation in your stomach, it makes you feel sick, suffocated, you want to scream out loud and the second you open your mouth you go numb. You cannot form a word , you try to gather your thoughts and make sense of what is going on in your mind, and still nothing.

What happens next? With all this going on in your head and not a word to say, you either want to shut down and go into hibernation till you find some peace or you want to look around for someone, someone you can talk to or even better someone you just need to see and not say a word to. If you are a child you might still have the privilege of sharing and having people by your side to make sure you are doing alright irrespective of what you say or do. But if you are what you always wished for ever since you were a child, if you are now an “ADULT”, God help you!! Express excitement, you are hyper. Express disappointment, you are demanding. Express attachment, you are needy. You know you need to let it out to feel sane again and more than often, the result of letting out is losing out. Losing out on people, losing out on relationships. You let the words out of your mouth and before you finish the last sentence, it hits you, how everything you said was your reaction, not as a result of what happened but what you thought would have happened, your worst nightmare. The fear of the worst possible outcome often takes control of us and we end up succumbing to the pressure, letting our thoughts overpower reality. And in this war between fear and reality you know who loses? You.

Reality is simple, it is in the present day. Not past and not future. You cannot change whatever lead to your deepest fears, but you can choose to let go and believe, let go and have faith that now, today, you win. You choose what you want for yourself, you choose how you respond to a situation, you choose to let go. Let go of your fears, insecurities, nightmares, that tingy feeling that keeps you away from what you have in front of you. So let go and embrace the present, be grateful for the people who stick around, be thankful to the ones who always show up, and let them know you are there for them too. Step away from the web of fear and insecurities, know that you are in control, believe in the present, take a leap of faith…

Make that Jump!!