Liminal Space

Every time I make the decision to invest in myself and go on retreat I come back transformed, renewed and energized. This recent trip to Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health in Stockbridge, Massachusetts was just what I needed to really step into my calling in this next chapter of my life.

This was not your typical yoga retreat. I was not joining a group of strangers to embark on a shared experience with a set agenda. This time, a small cohort from my EcoMinistry program with the Center for Wild Spirituality gathered for in person connection. Our small but mighty group called a Hive has been meeting bi-weekly for nearly a year on zoom. It was a wonderful opportunity to hug, laugh, cry and frolic with these beautiful humans in nature. We did all those things and more over the course of our few days together.

As I’ve emerged from our time together at Kripalu, I feel transformed. This is not a surprise given that magic happens anytime you gift yourself time on retreat to unplug and practice deep listening. What is a bit of a surprise is that I feel that I’ve finally crossed through the liminal space I have been living in over the last six months.

Liminal space is the space between what was and what is to become.

When I signed up for the EcoMinistry program last October I was a shell of the human that I am now. I was a human doing instead of a human being. I was living a life fueled by striving, to-do lists, busyness, and exhaustion. I pushed myself to a point where I felt like I needed a drink to “take the edge off” at the end of the day. That bad habit easily led to poor sleep and terrible eating choices. I rarely moved my body. My cortisol levels were through the roof, so much so, that my functional nutritionist called the lab to check the results. She was sure there was an error because she had never seen readings that high. Yet, I was still functioning even if at an incredibly unhealthy level.

I remember the first day of class we were asked to name ourselves by the characteristics we offered the world. People were offering beautiful nature-y things like “dancer of joy”, “wander in the woods”, and “she who converses with caterpillars”. I said I was a “strategic thinker”. Accurate and yet depressing at the same time. I was so far into my head that I felt completely detached from my body.

As I deepened my studies and began to learn about true belonging vs. false belonging, it became clear that the life I was existing in would lead to my death. Maybe not soon, but sooner than I wanted if I continued on. At the end of December, I took two weeks and went to my cabin in the woods to be alone and think. Taking my questions to the land helped bring a level of clarity I needed. When I returned in January, I resigned from my corporate job.

Because I loved my team and the people at the company I worked for, I wanted to give them enough time to plan and transition. I said goodbye on March 1st at 3pm. It was a Wednesday. From there I went directly to my EcoMinistry class and nourished my soul as well as my breaking heart.

For the last six months, I have felt like I’ve been living in liminal space. It has taken time to heal from the stress I’ve placed on my body in the last few decades. It has also taken time to find clarity on what this new chapter holds for me.

Through a simple yet incredibly meaningful ceremony with the loving support of my Hive over the weekend, I feel that I’ve finally crossed a threshold into the life I’m meant to live. My doubts have faded. I no longer feel in limbo and that I can jump out of this experiment at any point and get a “real job”. I know the work I’m doing in the world is needed at this moment in time.

My mission is to help individuals who want more out of life - more connection, more belonging, more freedom. I help you find your frolic.

One of the ways I can help you find your frolic is by holding space for your own personal growth experience while on retreat. I am delighted to partner with the lovely and talented Gretchen Schutte to offer a retreat in February we are calling Manifest Your Heart’s Desire. It is taking place at River Mountain House in Everett, Pennsylvania. We are planning four days and three nights full of movement, meditation, creativity and space to just be. Click THIS LINK for more information. We would love to have you join us!

With a heart full of gratitude for all that I am and all that I have I can honestly say that I have transformed from a strategic thinker to a whole human who moves through life with an open heart, a clear mind and a spirit that is alive and full of frolic. I would love to help you do the same if you feel you are in need of a little more magic in your life.

Use THIS LINK to schedule a 30-minute discovery call. I would love to listen to your own heart’s desire and discover how I can be of service to you on your journey to wholeness and well-being.

Be well and frolic on.