Will there be lights for me ?

“Why is it always me? People said that there will be nobody on earth who can ever love you more than your parents. But, will there be anybody that can abuse me more than my family? It took me 20 years to build up myself back after being shattered into a thousand pieces.

The hand that I thought would hug me as the presence of love, changed to the hand that pushed me to the world of hell. The words that I thought would lift me up, turned to the words that drowned me in the lake of a broken mind. The ears that I thought would hear my screams, are the main reason for my silence. My freedom was deprived. Mentally, physically and emotionally tired. I ran away.

I ran away from the so-called home. The home that should give me security and love but why I felt hell feels more like home? I ran with no slippers, and knew nothing about how the outside would be. It is hard, but it is harder to stay only to suffer. There is nothing cruel than how my life would be inside my own ‘home’. Even when people started to leave me because of the differences in a life stories that we had, it never affected me.?

That is how I came up with this painting. The brown, black and white colour symbolizes safety, power and innocence. The emotions in the subjects expression potrayed revenge, sadness, anger, tiredness, asking for help and frustration. The desert shows the challenges and obstacles, and the subjects without slippers shows there is no protection and comfort. That is how I came up with this painting that entitled Will there be lights for me ?” said Clara, the winners of the World Art Exhibition of 2021.