The life imaginary and notes on a mushroom trip
Chad Peevy
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I had a bit of a breakthrough this week as I was reflecting on why I am struggling lately to be present with my husband.
Perhaps this realization is tied to where my mind has been all summer - creating the online course for Break & Untangle.
I’ve been reviewing and teaching the 12 Mindset Methods that I wrote about in the book. And the more I reflect on them, the more I am realizing that it’s only 1 Mindset - the mindset of now.
The chapters are collapsing.
I think this is a good thing.
It makes life easier.
I’m reminded of this…
Notes on a Mushroom Trip
Back in January I did a hallucinogenic trip using psilocybin capsules.
One of the things I wrote in my journal post-trip was…
stop worrying about what’s on the other side of the equal sign, just be, right now
(there was also something in there about riding a dragon and crossing consciousness with my dog, but I’ll write about that another time)
In other words, just be present, and stop worrying about what happens next.
As I opened in this email - this is hard for me.
It’s hard because so much of our lives are spent in our imagination.
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This became clear to me during that trip because time ceased to exist for me during those 5 hours. In fact, I knew the trip was over when I experienced time again.
When I lost my sense of time it made me realize how much of our life exist in our imagination.
Our past is memories - mostly unreliable - and as such mostly irrelevant - we imagine what happened based on the bits and pieces that stick with us. (I say that as a person who spent most of my life there - and it’s torture.)
And our future is all imagination - impossibly known.
Nonetheless, we try desperately to make the unknown known - from insurance policies and retirement accounts - to marriage and children.
I suppose these acts of trying to cement our future in certainty helps us manage the anxiety of the unforeseeable.
But there has to be a balance, right?
Last night Pasha, Bailey, and I got stuck in the elevator in our building.
The elevator dropped quickly for a split second and then stopped.
For 30 minutes we dangled in a metal box,15 floors above the ground.
And yeah - I thought more than once that it could all end right then and there.
And if it had, I thought, what would have been on either end of that equal sign?
Would I have been proud of what had existed on either side?
Ultimately, I think life is deceptively simple.
And yet we spend our days constructing countless ways to make it difficult and complex.
Join me this week - let’s be resolved to do our best to put less emphasis on the other end of the equal sign.
Let’s just be - each and every day - just be where we are - with who we are with.
Until next week,
Chad