Letter to a Heartbroken Friend

I need you to know you didn’t deserve this.

I know this won’t mean anything to you now… words never do help a fresh wound.

In time, you will come to understand, and that is why I need you to know that you didn’t deserve what she did to you.

You will search and search for reasons within your mind, body and soul… reasons why she left you… reasons why you weren’t enough.?

After it happened you told me that no one had ever truly wanted you. You looked at me helplessly.. pleading.

For the first time,? Your eyes shook me to my core.

Your tear-filled brown eyes cut into me, staring aimlessly into the deepest orifice of my fractured soul…. just as my own eyes had back at me through that dusty bathroom mirror - catching one last goodbye before I took the pill. One last apology to myself, right before I gave up.

I watch the tears quickly burst from your kind eyes as I inch closer.

I feel like a failure… after all I’m only staying to look after you.?

I love you. I love you so much. I swear to god I’ll hold you until morning, as long as you need.

I just wish… I wish I could heal a heart like yours… like mine.

I don’t know how brother…. I’m so sorry.

So while I’m here, please just take my love.

You are the strongest man I know… let yourself fall into me for once. I have no other use.

Let me wrap my scraggly arms around you and tell me you won’t give up.

I can't let you give up. I can’t bear to lose you.