let's see

by - Tha_real_misfit

After working all year and overcoming obstacles, it is once again time to pause, consider what is truly happening, and pose the necessary questions.

Do I really want this from life?

What requires attention or modification?

Is this all that exists?

Should I keep pursuing my dreams?

These are questions that have always been difficult for me to answer, but obviously, everyone will have different answers depending on where they are at in life and how their beliefs, objectives, and aspirations play a part.

Rather than having the chance to take a step back and really assess, it has always been a frenzy, with these questions being answered for me. Well, because of an incident involving one dislocated shoulder, all I currently have is time.

It's a strange feeling, and it's unlike anything I've ever experienced. It's a period of time when, at least for the time being, I don't have anywhere to be. My only instructions are to rest my injury, so all I have to do is spend my time answering those questions, which is difficult, I must admit.

I've been putting so much effort into things and feeling like I'm never getting anywhere for quite some time now, year after year. Attempting new activities, having new experiences, and meeting new people just to find yourself back in the same place experiencing deja vu.

What will change in 2024? This year has begun in a different way than previous years. Is this really the forced break I've been waiting for? Is this an indication that I should take a break and relax?

Who knows?

Who knows if this will matter later on, if I find out the solutions to the unsolved issues, or if I'm still here in 2025, contemplating it?

All I can say is, let's see what happens, what mindset I adopt, whether I keep working towards the same objectives and hustling, or whether I ultimately come to terms with the fact that this is now my life.

let's see 2024!