Leave No Vet Behind...

In my memories, I find myself living on the streets of Charleston, SC—broken, homeless, and unsure of how I would survive another day. There were nights when I prayed to not see the light of another day. During my addiction, I wasn't a pleasant person to be around especially to those that knew me best. Everything became a desperate hustle to obtain that next high. People often mistake the life of an addict for a glamorous party, but the reality was far from it. It was a constant battle for survival, as our lives had become a living nightmare.

As an army veteran, I spent 20 years grappling with undiagnosed post-traumatic stress disorder and various other mental health disorders. I had joined the military after high school to earn money for college, and I have no regrets about the experiences and lifelong bonds I formed during my service to my country. However, veterans are taught to bury their emotions and feelings, something we hesitate to discuss with non-veterans out of fear of being judged differently due to the actions we may have taken while following orders or trying to protect others.

But what happens when we leave active duty with all these unresolved issues still buried deep within us, only for them to resurface later? I believed I had everything under control as my life was crumbling around me. I didn't know how to ask for help, and I didn't have anyone I trusted enough to talk to about the nightmares that kept me awake at night. We wear these "masks," telling people we're "okay" when we're far from it, because nothing makes sense anymore. We continue to numb our emotions, trying not to dwell on the past, believing deep down that there is no way to change our lives or to find forgiveness for the pain we've caused others. To escape from my haunting reality, I resorted to numbing myself to life with alcohol and drugs.

If you are struggling with mental health or substance use disorders, I want to emphasize that I know the challenges you've faced or are currently facing. Your journey, especially dealing with addiction and mental health issues resulting from your military service, has been incredibly difficult. It's important to recognize that you are not alone in this struggle, and there are resources available to help you.

Transitioning from active duty can be a monumental change, and the unresolved issues veterans carry often resurface during this time. The military fosters a culture of strength and resilience, which can make it challenging for veterans to reach out for help or express their emotions openly. However, it's crucial to understand that seeking support is a sign of strength, not weakness.

Fortunately, there are numerous organizations and programs dedicated to supporting veterans' mental health and aiding their transition into civilian life. The Department of Veterans Affairs (VA) offers a wide range of services, including counseling, therapy, and support groups tailored specifically for veterans. They have resources to help address issues such as post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and other mental health concerns. If you want to seek help outside of the VA for whatever reason, or you need local resources, please drop me a message.

Additionally, many non-profit organizations and support networks focus on assisting veterans in their recovery and reintegration process. These organizations understand the unique challenges faced by veterans and can provide the necessary guidance and support.

Forgiving oneself and finding a path towards healing is a difficult journey, but it is not insurmountable. Rock bottom can be a great place to rebuild your life without the shackles of yesterday. Professional help, such as therapy or counseling, can be invaluable in this process. Collaborating with a mental health professional who specializes in trauma and veterans' issues can provide you with the tools and strategies needed to address the emotional burden you carry and find a way forward.

Remember, reaching out for support is an essential step in your recovery. You deserve the opportunity to heal and build a fulfilling life. If you don't know where to go or if you need somebody to talk or listen, hit me up.