The Last Night I Got to See My Dad
That scream in my voicemail will never leave the echos of my mind.
My grandma screeching in pain that her son, my dad, had been shot and killed. It was surreal… and no way that could have happened… it had been 2 years of my dad and I repairing our relationship and theres no way he could have been gone. It blew my mind when I didn't hear his voice when I called his phone that second.
"… no no no no, that can't be - i just saw him 2 days ago", I thought.
* no answer on the phone *
I try again.
*No answer **
Nothing is working, my phone is frozen in my hand, but I'm somehow not sad in my heart. I immediately flash back to the night of when I saw my dad… just a few days ago… literally 2 days prior!
"No way….", I thought again. Called his phone and got his voicemail again.
Immediately, I flashed back to when I saw him… the look in his eyes as if he knew something was about to happen and he couldn't believe i had came over that night… (CLICK HERE Full Episode) I remembered what God had shown me when I was walking out of his house that night too…
<memory flashback>
I remember seeing a golden gift box with a ribbon being tightened, and a voice saying 'It is Finished' as if the work I was hoping to accomplish in showing my dad someone truly loved him no matter how stupid he got was accomplished. I never gave up on him because God never gave up on me.
<memory flashback>
I then get this weird peace in my heart that I have no explanation for. Even though the peace didn't make sense, I knew I needed to seperate myself and that's when I called a friend to share the news.
I'd be lying to you if I said the darkest thoughts I could have ever imagined didn't come & introduce themselves to me during this because when your family vacation turns into a funeral… things happen in your mind // emotions // and definitely spiritually when this goes down.
I'll share in another post what happened, but please take this time to reach out to someone you know who's grieving or fighting suicide and encourage them.
Keep being an awesome human and stay #LegacyDriven… it pays off, trust me.
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