Know thyself.

I woke up in the middle of the night and cried aloud. I felt, my life was finished. I felt my wounds would never heal!?

My soul cries beneath my tiny place of mind where I think it remains there, remains in that particular left part of my upper body; that one place has the remarks of every scratch, wound, silly mistakes and weird shattered pieces within it.

I kept it,?I bound it, I slept on it and I buried?it with a harsh enunciation of scolds where I reminded, you shouldn't be a well-spoken person and definitely you cannot express to the world for your own betterment. Then, someday my burnt soul cries and sacks the boundary to touch the glimpses of light for enlightening its scarry scrambled, fresh scars, as it wanted to have?few words to soothe, embrace some eager consolation from the very close person of mine.

Yeah. Such words are very known words to us. We listened and learnt at least once in our life from many closest persons. I wrote it from my closer one's experience, even though I also faced such sort of feelings when I couldn't express. I can bet, everyone faces such situation once in lifetime.

I never imagined that I would have to write something about what?I used to feel that these words are forbidden to write. Since?the world is definitely going to accept these facts as?unhygienic for the clean society. In my childhood I?used to write all my feelings in dairy and end of the year I burnt the pages of the dairy as if anyone reads once, I will feel nothing but a weak person. After reaching adulthood I asked many people whether they kept their dairy as a memory or not, but most of the time I got answer as similar as my weird eliminating memory act that I did. This is clear that many introvert, ambivert people do such things to dismiss their beautiful pieces of memory. I think, this is applicable for extrovert people as well. We do not know how our inner me acts to bloom in front of others and also in front of our folk.

One interesting factor I must mention it now, I shared my write up with my close one and first question was I never knew you had this much tough time in your life, and I asked inverse question whether he faced the same. Amazingly I experienced on that time, that person refused me with one sentence NO I never faced such situation where I knew the answer as that person truly faced a lot. Here I got same storyline what we do for healing ourselves. We try to share with our close people or else we make it vanished from our memory (As we think, this is also included in our healing process).

Now, my turn is towards my analysis!!!?

I read many minds, many books, many environments. But, whenever it comes to my?turn that I need to pacify my close person's?haughty, scared souls, every time I noticed, I fought with my words. My mind asked me whether my words might make this beautiful person happy or make the person's mind noisier and more scared and I will just end up an unsuccessful person who cannot resolve anyone's problem, make a?happy time and skip the time of sadness. For instance, I met an elderly person who is a schizophrenia patient. She got divorced from her husband and she has no child as well. Worst part is she has no relative who may take care of her. She started living in my hostel where I used to reside. Her roommate is feeling hopeless and also petrified as she doesn't how to take care of her. I tried to reach a doctor in a local app as she got sick recent. The doctor suggested to send her at her home. Day after that day, I had to shift in my own flat where I will live alone. She started sharing her things, but I was truly dejected for my condition, and I remain busy till 10pm, leave home 6:30 am. I tried to console her, support her but present condition mine also not so good. In my life, this time I cried, and I gave her suggestions where I know she is truly helpless, and every solution will be vain as she is not in any state where she can take care of her. My every MANTRA failed in this case.

One can easily sort out many problems with various books. For instance, one can learn to stay positive with the gist of the positive mind of Vincent. Again, one can reverse the rules of society?with the learning of "The art of not giving a f*ck.Antifragile can rebuild a person and Ikigai can provide a new meaning of life. I am exactly sure of one thing, that many books can heal a soul without any person's assistance. Then why we search for our close person,?why we want to be in a society, why we open up in our self-talk or write in few pieces of papers to know noise, why we want to have some condolences?from our nearest one. Again, this pretty direct approach towards our own betterment always successfully heals us.

We know how to come out from such fragile situations, we know what is right or wrong. Then, again, why we want our near one's warmth. My last example is enough for this.

Yes, I am comparing living being with non-living things because the more we depend on others, or our healing process can in within us. As if we review our life or our experience, we can understand that many times we cannot reach our beloved person in our critical stage of our life. I am going to explain one story, one of my close persons before committing suicide told me to meet her. Unfortunately, I was truly packed with my work and study. It was one of the worst examples of my life. Again, one well acquaintance of mine called his buddy before committing suicide, his best friend was in deep sleep and Alas situation created on that time. So, Healing process must be practiced in our own way as we cannot regain this people in our life again, but we can build a strong nation where no one will depend on others for their emotional support and again, human being necessary but, our mind must be strong enough for supporting our own soul in crucial situation.??

We want to be healed?because we are social being and we loved to have same words what our minds want us to listen. We stay in dilemma. We hope to see interaction from our near one and want a certainty, overwhelming?conclusion.

Then, how can we separate the sad person from their own created conclusion to their actual reality where they need to take steps to go forward and accept the odd reality and find the society-accepted-situations (or advice from doctors) as part of their daily life.

Quite uncertainty in every words. Right?

I can definitely, make it more glorified with my tough words, but I would love to say one thing in the end, solving the scars aren’t our piece of cake. Our wisdom is barely?a weapon. But our counted steps towards the?person can heal the person faster and teach close one with our learning, experience and tactic. We do not need to be motivational speaker or a student from psychology, but we must keep trying to know a person well, make proper gesture, show warmth and directing towards righteous way. In this way, a person can start to learn by themselves and will be less dependent.

Strategic words counted specific word, preplanned home task can separate both?evenly (separating the person from their sadness/expected conclusion I wanted to mean here) and figure out how critical his/her situation is!!!

I am not discouraging anyone to read books where one can learn the lessons of life. I am just trying to push the factor that we cannot solve anyone’s problem what occurred recently with a prompt suggestion life lesson related book.

?But we definitely can learn and suggest a person the books what can be learnt in a steady state of mind. One learnt person sometimes cannot deal with their difficulty with their dark side of mind where a simple mind can solve psychological issues in a jiffy of time. This sometimes depends on mindset or capability of healing. But misjudge a wise person is wrong! This person knows a lot but still does these many mistakes. Of course, this misconception. One learnt mind or soul can also make mistakes. One unlearnt person can also sort things out. Human nature can definitely,?puzzled in any stage of life. After sex life, series showed us two?students of psychology, went crazy, made their life up and down and again, they sorted all the wondered off state of life.

Learning?is process of ease where one can take its gist in mind in a very calm mind. A weaver mind cannot read it in that state of life. Books are companion who builds nature, characteristics and can boost a mind with positivity.?So, whenever I meet people, I spread the words of books instead of suggesting many books. Encouraging a soul can take the lessons more easily than taking any suggestions of books from a wise person.

Our mind love to visualize, love to know the gist, core of many books and do not want to skim it once. But real gem is hidden in it. The Foundation of the mind rely on it.Wisdom is power, wisdom can rebuild a person.

Spreading wisdom to resolve raffled wires of our minds need more strategy and more learning. Then,?this slow process of books can spread its wings.

I am certain. One day every mind will be calm and learn to read the books to rebuild their minds and will handle every sad night with own healing power and let other people take the vibe of wisdom.