I’ve been hiding for 2 years now… {Here’s how it affected my income and life}

Here’s how it affected my income and?life

Picture: It’s my wedding day, 9 Dec 2022.?

About 200 people are attending the wedding. Of course, this was an intimate wedding as per Indian standards.?

While I’m getting ready, my relatives are coming to congratulate me.?

A thought on the back of my mind…

“When they ask what do I do… how do I explain it to them? How do I tell them I’m a life coach? What will they say?”

For some reason, I’ve been scared (and ashamed too?) of telling people what I do.?

Life coaching is quite a new concept for people around me.?

And I’ve been afraid of judgment.?

Here’s a scary fact: My business figures were the same in 2022 and 2023.?

For someone who’s been on his growth journey for almost a decade, this is a scary fact.

As I reflect on why didn’t my business grow… I figured there’s a deeper reason.

And that reason is… I’ve been hiding for 2 years.

I’ve been hiding from people around me, my family, my relatives, and even from myself.

Because I’ve been (unconsciously) very afraid of people’s judgment. I’ve been afraid of being seen.

I haven’t been showing up openly.?

Before I went to college, I grew up as a people pleaser. I had an over-achiever personality as a kid.

And after I went to college, I went through anxiety and depression. It made me anti-social.?

I remember I’d lock myself up in my room and binge-watch Netflix for days in a row. Yikes!?

I got engaged to be married in Feb’22. Since then, I’ve been having so many relatives around me. Like totally opposite to where I was in college?—?alone and anti-social.

And I started caring about people’s opinions. A little too much. And I wasn’t aware of it?:’).

Here I am, in March 2024 writing this post.

With my current awareness and consciousness, of course, things will change.?

Over the last few weeks, I’m getting a strong intuition. The Universe talks to me this way.

I’m reflecting on who I’ve been and how I’ve shown up in my life and business in the last 2 years.

The intuition I’m receiving??

This is time now; time to show up with courage and openness.?

It’s been a while since I’m hiding. It’s not helping anyone. Not even me.

This is the month I change things.?

I’m showing up more openly and courageously. More vulnerably.

This post is an example.

You can follow my journey on LinkedIn (my profile link). That’s where I’m most active.

Your fears can make you self-sabotage unconsciously.

It felt like I was drowning in muddy ground, going down and inside the ground to keep myself safe.?

It’s time to get out of the mud and take my stand.?

You can’t do it step by step. You can only jump out of it.

Typing this vulnerable post is my jump out of the mud.?

I’m here. Ready to be seen.?

And I hope you’re ready to be seen too.?

This post was originally written at?—?https://www.dipanshurawal.com/hiding/