I've Become Super Ir-Relevant
Shipra Madaan
Executive Resume Writer | Helping Senior Professionals Optimize Their Job Search & Personal Brand | Leadership Hiring
I remember when I first lost my job. It was in the year 2011. I was with Manpower Professionals in Chandigarh. They closed down their operations, and hence I lost my job.
I came back home and sat in my balcony with a cup of tea. My husband was in office. My son was sleeping on his couch. He was one year old. I had nothing going on in my mind. No feelings. No thoughts. Noting Positive. Nothing Negative. Nothing. It was all blank.
While Sipping my tea, I felt my cheeks wet. A liquid was slowly slipping inside my nose. I sniffed. I touched my eyes. Were these tears? Why was I crying? Was there anything to cry about? I wasn’t financially stressed. My husband had a decent income. It was just the first day of me being jobless. Technically, not even the first day. I did go to the office today. And they were paying me one month’s add-on salary as well. It’s just that I didn’t have to go to the office.
But then what was it? Mind blank. No thoughts. If at this time, someone asked me, “How are you feeling?” OR “Are you OK?”. I would have said, “Ya! Ya! I am fine.” But then why were my eyes wet? Why I had a running nose? I wiped off my tears with my hands.
Suddenly all this was broken by the sound of my son crying. I got up and went inside. Following 2 hrs, I just got engrossed taking care of him. Feeding him, changing his clothes, preparing dinner, singing him his favorite rhymes. I don’t know what was all this. But for the next 2 hrs, I completely forgot that something happened today.
And now, all this was broken by a doorbell. I went and opened the door. My husband was standing there. He came in. I went to the kitchen. Made him a cup of tea. He got freshen up and played with our son for a while. I came and sat on the sofa. Sipped his tea, and his phone rang. He picked up his phone and cup of tea and went to the balcony.
I was sitting there, and again that watery substance started flowing. I was confused. But today, I know that the real reason behind those tears was
“I felt Super Ir-relevant.”
What do you think? Did I felt that way? Have you been on this roller coaster of emotions?
Did I felt Ir-Relevant?
Coach |Collaborator | Listener | Story Teller
3 年Shipra Madaan , it’s all about engagement and something to look forward. Here I feel it was more the vacuum not about relevance
Supply Chain & Logistics | Corporate Sales Manager-West-Unique Logistics International.
3 年Yes you were Ir Relevant but still relevant that you had your own freedom to think for your own self. We get so lost in our jobs that we feel that it is the only thing which it is not. Things will go the way they are supposed to go but how we respond to them will matter and that is where the relevance will come in. Loved the way you have written the post.
Global Head of Reconciliations at ANZ
3 年It rings true, sometimes the hurt is beyond logic