It's OK to be sad after making the right decision

These words genuinely spoke to me; I realized that this is something many people experience. The only constant in life is change. We have to adapt to our surroundings: Survive, thrive, and leave something behind that is more significant than ourselves.

When I was a child, my mother would tell me that I can do anything. I have the ambition, intellect, and integrity to succeed in any career I would choose. Since you need money to get qualified, and that was not something I had access to after school, I had to jump in and prove to someone that I can add value without a degree or qualification.

I remember, vividly, the words I said at an interview for a temporary position at a Logistics company: All I need is for someone to give me a chance, and I will prove to you that I can be an asset to your company. I was twenty-two years old. They gave me a chance, and I ended up working at that company for thirteen years. I guess my mother was right.

Even though I moved between divisions, I always felt proud of my accomplishments and respected because of my work ethic. God had bigger plans for me. Life and Covid 19 lockdown happened. Everything changed, and I knew that this season of comfort, stable income, medical aid, and pension has come to an end.

I had to do introspection and evaluate my skills. What do I have to offer? What am I good at? What should I do to take care of my children and still be in God's will for my life? It took a few substantial leaps of faith, but I decided to start with a business where I could add value to other organizations and people on a personal level. I love every minute of it, but I am not surviving. It has been eight months, and I still need help to make ends meet.

So, I'm sad. Following my dream has not been as romantic as all those successful people made it sound on their motivational video clips. Starting over at age thirty-six is difficult, humiliating, and frustrating. I think about giving up every day. I do, however, have something of unmeasurable value. A relationship with God that loves me.

Matthew 6:25-26

Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they???

It's ok to be sad when you are struggling, but if the dream in your heart is to glorify God in what you do, that dream came from Him, and He will never leave you nor forsake you

It is with great excitement and expectation that I write this story. I know God will surprise me with immeasurably more than I can ask or imagine…

Ephesians 3:20-21

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever! Amen.