INFJ - Indigo - woman

As a young girl, I was a horse mad, freckle-faced ginger with long pigtails. I had imaginary friends, a wild imagination, conversations with the unseen, lucid dreams, a spiritual connection with flora & fauna, and artistically gifted. I wanted to fit in but repeatedly scorned I wasn't normal. I was called many names and some so mean, I won't repeat them. This is when I developed a deep resentment for labels. I hated being "branded."

Today - It is required to be branded, but now its on my terms. My "brand" is who I'm representing NOT what others opinions are. To quote Rhett Butler, " Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn.

It took years to free myself from impostor syndrome feeling I wasn't enough; Not educated, not talented, not attractive, not eloquent, not affluent, not charismatic..... Enough.

One of the most amazing discoveries I encountered was reading components from the Toltec philosophy explained by Don Miguel Ruiz. in his book the Four Agreements & the 5th Agreement. which I shall provide a brief summary.

1st Agreement states - BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD- To speak with integrity- Avoid criticisms & judgments about others or upon yourself.

2nd Agreement states - DON'T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY - What people do or say is a reflection of who they are inside - projecting outwardly.

3rd Agreement states - DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS - Beware of the thoughts the mind creates formed from ego. The lies we create which evoke drama, gossip, blame and fear.

4th Agreement states - ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST - put your heart into each task and respect that your best will differ from when you're healthy as opposed to feeling ill.

5th Agreement states - BE SKEPTICAL BUT LEARN TO LISTEN - Take words at face value, both yours & theirs - we must listen from within.

Biology proves I am a female human.., Psychology depicts I am an INFJ - Indigo Spirituality.. I AM.

It isn't the results of a test, the material world acquisitions, the job, the accolades, the family or friends. That was made evident after surviving a house fire. All that I thought defined me was removed - the diplomas, the medals, the trophies, the photos, the celebratory cards. I initially felt I was erased. I realized that I can do everything and be nothing, I can give everything and contribute nothing, I can create passionately and still destroy. have the highest intentions and still go to hell.

I am responsible for who I am - and not obligated to prove it to the masses. I believe if I live consciously, applying the 5 Agreements wholeheartedly, I am fulfilled.

What actions are you taking to become fulfilled?