I'm In Control

I spent my entire life just floating around; no purpose, no plan.

I was perfectly happy surrendering myself to the universe and letting it take me where it decided. I was helpless.

Don't get me wrong, I had a great life and I jumped on opportunity when it presented itself, but I lacked control of my own life.

I thought I was indifferent...

I was indecisive

I remember renting video games from the store as a kid. I would take FOREVER to make a decision, going back and forth between multiple games before FINALLY picking one out.

Trying to order food or plan dinner must have been painful for my wife. Let's be honest, it probably still is but I feel I've gotten better : )

These are just a few examples throughout my life, but this indecision was rooted deep in my psyche. It followed me wherever I went in almost every decision I made.

I thought I didn't care and that I was just trying to be easy for others. I thought I was indifferent, what did I care? I was happy with whatever...

But deep down, I see now that I never knew what I wanted.

And when I did, I hid it behind my indifference; my inability to make a decision. My ability to take clear action towards the goals I set for myself.

In fact, I spent a good amount of my adult life being anti-goals. I read an article when I was younger about creating habits rather than goals - it was either a bad article or I misinterpreted it because I can see clearly now that you need both to achieve what you want in this life.

Waking up

When I had my spiritual awakening at the end of last year and I decided to accept this Manifest a Million Challenge - I don't think I knew it at the time, but I was giving myself, for the first time in my life, a definite purpose. Something to motivate me and drive me and push me beyond what I thought I was capable of.

That may have been the first real decision of my life - one in which I made for myself, without influence.

I am no longer wishy-washy; I no longer change my mind. I have very clear goals and a plan to get me there. I am focused on the most important steps in achieving my goals and I push myself hard to bring them to reality.

Whether we realize it or not, we are constantly manifesting the reality we live in. We become the thoughts we think about constantly. I never had a real thought, I let the world guide my thoughts and my decisions and build my reality for me.

This year I have taken back control of my life. I decide what I want. And once I do, I focus my energy on achieving it until I have. That's why I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life:

I am finally making my own decisions. I decide who I want to be and how I want to live my life. Not the other way around!

Join me on this journey...

I am manifesting $1M working for myself this year. Follow the Manifest a Million Challenge every Sunday through Thursday night - a look at my progress, plans, and thoughts throughout it all.

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