I'll keep learning-

So... This is another year of me learning and being a new person... 8 years later today when I celebrated my birthday, I know this wasn't the time when I would just get over it like anything. But this year would be something so much more, coming up with so many responsibilities and plans dug deep inside the deepest pocket in the corner of my mind.

I am happier than ever, I have learnt a lot, I am happy for the person I am becoming and I may become, there are some of the most important things I learned this past year. Which I would love to share, with someone younger than me.

We're all learners and would keep learning maybe till we reach our death bed, and that is what makes us... us... right?

There are some things... I would like to keep it here for you.

It's not about being your best... you will harm yourself thinking that, just be better... daily... wake up, and just do something which resonates with your heart. Which makes you feel alive.

Insecurities and opinions will keep hurting you, but it's your choice if you want them to seep inside your beautiful self or not.

I have finally learnt to love myself, leaving back my insecurities and self-doubt.

I have learnt that it isn't guaranteed that the people whom you think are closest will support you. But that means nothing bad... everyone grows up in their way. You only need one person to believe in you and that's it. Let me give you that one person, "you"

I get it would always be difficult to accept some things. Maybe it would be your environment or the people you're around, maybe the trauma you're healing from.

Healing is guaranteed, know that. Give yourself permission to heal. Don't let your trauma's past mistakes hit you now and act as a supporter in this useless path of self-pity. You have only yourself and if you pity yourself, you will lose from that only one person who is with you.

You are not here to make everyone else comfortable, know that people won't be happy, and be okay with it. Your decisions won't be always great, your beliefs won't be always reasonable, your thinking always won't portray practicality, and your love won't be valid all the time.

It's okay. What matters is the part of you that heals, learns, grows, gets wounded, and come back because well.... you have to, with whole willingness, happier, better, and nourished within.

Give yourself permission to grow, cut the toxic human who is taking away your brightness, call that person who is not taking your boundaries clearly and command the respect you deserve, and start raising your hands without worrying about your answers being wrong.

And finally, I would like to thank the Snee who helped me in this journey where I love my body, accepted my past mistakes and left the toxicity even when my heart didn't want to.

My mind is happier and healthier, and there was just one thing that was stopping this... Snee to get out there and try... I feel the need to get myself validated. No one did. I had to validate myself. You will keep learning forever. Give yourself permission.

Give yourself permission to be anything and everything you want. Feminine, masculine, atheist, religious, lover, dangerous, muscly, lean, healthy, alone, in a group, confident, tomboy, rebellious, spiritual, stoic, successful, enormous, cute, loving, deserving, be someone you will be proud of.

Snee Schiffer.