I WISH I DIDN’T KILL MYSELF.

Loooh!!!!

Am no longer alive,

Am no longer breathing,

Am no longer thinking or doing,

Am no longer able to see or talk,

Am no longer able to eat or walk,

Am just sleeping, Sleeping until the dawn,

The dawn which might be darkness to me again.

Why did I kill myself?

Why did I take my own life?

Why life was no longer meaningful?

Why my family was no longer helpful?

Why my friends were no longer mindful?

Why my mind was no more thoughtful?

Why the world was no more kindful?

Why my Lord was no longer merciful?

Oh my God!!!

I was just blinded,

Blinded by my own thoughts,

Thoughts of selfishness and false helplessness.

Both of them were there,

But I never asked for help,

And pretended to be fine all the time.

I wish I couldn’t kill myself,

For my life was worth living,

But I can’t bring it back again,

? Dedicated to everyone who ever thought or will think of taking their own lives, Suicide thoughts are deceitful.

NB: This fictional work has nothing to do with the religious teachings concerning the deads. The author used fully figurative language and declares no conflict of interest.