I smell death...

It is the sixth day of the year. I have returned back to the UK and I have just woken up. I made my breakfast and my tasty hot black coffee. I sat in front of my window watching the cars outside passing by. The birds singing on the trees in front of my window.

My mind is navigating through my own few hundred thoughts. I had a very strange dream last night where I was in Vietnam, lost my shoes and suddenly I was wearing one of someone’s else’s and my own on the other foot! But I could see his life through my eyes and my life at the same time. It was the shoe that was doing that and that was kind of spooky.

Sometimes we judge people, or we might be upset with them because we didn’t get what we wanted. Does this sound a bit selfish?

My dream however had a purpose. It might sound weird to you, but my own dreams are usually a prediction of what is going to happen in my life, or they give me a sign how to handle a current situation. They nearly always have a meaning to me. I never said that I am a normal person as brain is constantly on and I do things differently. (See ‘Are You Normal?’ on my YouTube Channel) feel free to subscribe and share.

I realized once again that we cannot treat people all the same. Some people are really special and deserve a different kind of approach or love from us. They are worth the effort. We learn every day about ourselves and others. We meet some people in our path for a certain reason. We don’t often have the chance to meet special people with that special pure kind heart.

It is hard and it takes lot of courage to step out of your own self and your own ego just to see the reality and your true purpose on this earth. To be there for someone without expecting anything in return except maybe his/her respect. But nothing else. So today, I realised what really pure love is. Love actually comes in many different forms and it is not just romantic love. Love is when you deeply care for someone’s else wellbeing more than for yourself without depriving yourself of happiness at the same time.

True kindness is when you do not think “what is there for me” but what is there for the other person. Many people through the years called me non-sensical because I wanted to help people and make them smile when they are feeling down or experiencing life issues. My path as a life coach has taught me this both with professional clients and with friends and family (please contact me if you would like one to one counselling with me). Probably if they are reading this now, they would call me an extreme idiot perhaps for wasting my time and overfocusing on others rather than myself. But I as Nadia, successful life-coach, friend and mother feel proud of myself and I feel that I am becoming a better person without the need of anyone’s approval anymore. Try it, it is so liberating, trust me.

The world can be quite a cruel world at times. People can be mean for many reasons, some of them can even be evil and perhaps we cannot save them, certainly not a caring friend. Last year, 2020, I therefore smelled death…. I could feel their emotional death around me, at the grocery store, at the local market. People were walking but they were not really emotionally living, feeling their life walk, realising the path they are on. Their eyes were empty, as they were empty souls drifting around. So much insecurity, fear and despair of what might be coming next. I smelled this type of death every day and saw it taking people who were close to me however much I tried to help some people outside of the coaching I do professionally.

I smelled also the real death, how many people passed away this year from covid, cancer, heart attack, mental illness? Stress, worry and insecurities are eating us slowly and we start seeing this as a natural effect. Life is not just about paying bills, taking care of others, serving someone’s else life but it is also about us. Yes, us, as Viktor Frankl said “I do not want to be equal to my sufferings” He was able to see light in his life while he was a prisoner at Auschwitz. I wouldn’t say that we are in a worse position than him right, now are we?

The contradiction though is that death exists because life exists. They cannot exist without each other. This contradiction gives me more power and motivation to enjoy life. Its’ experience makes me hungry for life, because I know how death feels from my own, my surroundings and my clients’ experiences.

It sounds so cliché, but life is unpredictable. I smelled death that moment when I was waiting a few years ago for important medical exam result that would change my life. I could see his face, and I could sense that these results might be dark and ugly. I knew I was rolling the dice Death vs Life. What was is going to be? I was lucky. Life won that moment, but do we know how many times we will be lucky again?

I will continue to work at being a better person, more healthy and more aware of what is going around me. It is my life’s purpose and makes me feel complete. Cherish and treat well the good people who are around you. They are like diamonds, rare to find and precious. It is not easy but love them for who they are. Just be there for them and support them if they need it, encourage them to embrace life again and live.

Tell those people that you love them, do not wait to share your feelings. We are facing so many difficulties every day, we do deserve to have a break and have fun.

PS: Talk to someone if you need to…

People who do not undertake coaching or support perhaps need to see things for themselves. People who are at coaching are already open to wanting to change and want to be helped. They are often always grateful for the positive changes that life-coaching makes in their lives that I and other professionals provide.

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Best Regards,

Nadia