I was sitting on a bench and talking to a Isha Volunteer :: Sadhguru came, took him away but he left me behind...

I was wandering here and there in life.. never had a goal and vision for myself!

I took what came my way.. My father joined me in a school, I went and studied! He joined me to a cricket coaching camp.. I went and played..

He put me in a basketball academy I went and played..

My father got me a cycle.. I cycled everyday! My dad used to tell me to read books so I used to read books..

My Mom said go to Narayana e-techno school I went there..

Then the school said we have a college too and if you join here you will get good grades so I went there also..

Was never able to choose anything for myself because I did not have a choice..

Frustrated about life and not knowing what to do I did random things like going out with friends, bunking classes, going to #iskcontemple going to shiva temples and going to parties and going into the forests and going to good restaurants to eat good food..

(apparently all this for the sake of dopamine)

Wherever I went, people received me with open hearts #iskcon asked me to join #folk, Friends asked me to be a part of their groups,

People used to come to me to help them study when I was in college because they knew I improved my grade gradually.

Now, I was about to settle after I got a Job in #TCS and great people came into my life they taught me so many things, even today they help me improve myself and grow in my career.

But, One fine day (October 4th 2022) Life shook me again, I saw my grandfather die in front of my eyes.. he was holding my hand and he left his body with his eyes open and I felt the warmth of his touch fade away..

I rubbed his feet thinking it will bring him back to life and was crying, I started yelling at the doctors and saw the faces of all the people next to me with disgust because no one could do anything to save him. I was disgusted with myself.

While all this was happening I forgot to pray to god (Maybe he would have helped If I had prayed)

But, I did not! and I scold myself for forgetting god at that moment even today..

Then, We bought my grandfather back to his house everything happen so fast hundreds of people started gathering around the house, everyone started crying..

I observed every face and saw the intentions in their faces when they cried!

Some were crying because my grandfather had helped them and they don't have anyone to get help from now, some were pretending to be sad so everyone don't think bad about them, some were arguing with people, and some people that knew my grandfather did not come only..

He had a very close friend all his life.. He was probably the only one who really felt sad that my grandfather is no more.. (I saw it in his eyes)

But a few wonderful people arranged everything like lights and chairs and food and water for all the people who came and I was there thinking what's the point now ?

You put chairs or you make everyone stand.. He is dead and he is not coming back..

You give them water or you don't, he is not coming back..

You put lights or you don't, he will not come back..

So what's the point in crying when he is gone.. Why did you not ask him what he wanted when he was alive?

I got an answer : Now, what they do on that day matters more than what they have done all the 80 years that he was alive..

Because, people will anyway be people and do what they want to do.. (The traits of evolutionary and survival instincts)

They will spend lakhs sending children to schools and colleges, They want only their family to be seen as great.. They want everyone to look down upon others, because they could not achieve anything significant in their life they want others also to limit their believes and do what the society is doing..

I could take a thousand examples but, these are the names of the people I look upon for answers when I have questions..

If Sadhguru JV had not disrupted the way we see god, We would still be wandering to #iskcon and #SriSri. ( Probably Asaram Bapu? or RAM RAHIM ? , Maybe Nithyananda.. Who knows ? ) Even today they have millions of followers.. isn't it funny?

If Narendra Modi had not disrupted the way we perceive ourselves we would still be in the dynasty / family rule..

If #ratantata had not been in India we would not have Tata Group .

If All these people thought about only them and their families we would not have a India that we have today..

If they wanted to they could have got married.. But they did not ?

Why?

I don't want to go into the details about sadhguru's life.. because he married #viji he has a daughter and he is a slave of a man.. (His life is a mystery, a mystery that only #adiyogi has an answer to..)

If #zoho was not founded we would not have a billion dollar firm in India.

All great people doing great work..

They choose the battle that they have to fight they choose their paths and they choose their destiny..

But don't they not have a choice..?

Because, #ratantatasir had the responsibility to take over his dad's company he stayed back..

Because, Sadguru wanted to make the world a beautiful place and make it like a temple he is working day in and out to establish as many yoga centres as he can and bring out the people from suffering?

Because, Narendra Modi has the responsibility to take India to greater heights he is not worried about his family? (Vasudaivaka Kutumbakam) The world is my family he says..

There is a cause that they are fighting for.. And what are we doing? buying houses upon houses fighting for silly reasons like seats in a bus.. being slaves to the oligarchs by using their products..

we feel we are great if we have Uphone, We feel we are great if we have 1000 followers on InkedIN, We feel the need to get validation day in and day out.. That validation is bondage!

No matter what : if we do what has to be done gracefully we will be free from suffering and live joyfully!

Apparently, the world needs more people to come together, those who have great intentions about humanity and we need to accept each other the way we are..

We are a certain way because our ancestors were a certain way.. We do certain activities because our parents Influence us. We wear certain clothes because the culture influences us, we don't have a choice.

I will write about the day when Sadguru left me behind and took away a volunteer with him some other day..

He just gave me the key, and left me loose so that his work becomes easier and it is my responsibility to guard the key and pass it on to the future generations now,

He made me responsible for everything that I do.

Because he choose to not take me with him.. I started wondering about my life, If he had chosen to take me with him I would have been a full time volunteer in #ishafoundation and I would not try to know the truth..

The truth is that : will tell you some other day..

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I don't want to be a god.. I want to be a conscious human being with intentions to help the humanity come out of suffering..

suffering from death, suffering from fear, suffering from slavery, suffering from work, suffering from relationships, suffering from friendship, suffering from parents and genetic lineage..

AUM NAMAH SHIVAAYA!

then, I browsed through the images and found my face clicked like a man I want to be in the process of being made..

This was me in 2020. (Had met with an accident was in the process of healing myself :: the scar on my forehead)

#ignitingconsciouness