I miss my Daddy

I really miss my Daddy so much all the time, he was the only one who loved & accepted me for my true authentic ownself! I remember one time he was in the hospital maybe 3 years ago, I got food poising 4m a deli we took out 4m. I shared a half a cheeseburger, fries, smoked salmon & a bagel! I felt sick & nauseous after & had a fever of 102, thats very high 4 me, I rarely get that sick & run high fevers! My heart was fast & I just felt yucky, hot & cold clammy, sweaty hands! I was talking to Daddy on the phone who was in the hospital for something, probably cellulitis, he said Larry should take me right down to the E.R.! I think I had a low 02, it was 94/95%! My Mother did not want to come w/us & started putting up a big fuss! She couldn't be left alone, she use to wonder out of the house looking for her parents house, she had early onset dementia! I had went to bed feeling sick & short of breath, I was sleeping w/the handset phone, Daddy on the other end in the hospital for comfort I felt so bad, my 02 was 93/94%, well I woke up early w/a racing heart, very hot & high blood pressure, Larry had to take me now it was a real emergency! My Mom was sleeping, it was around 7:30 am, he pretty much just dropped me off in the E.R. & went strait home to take care of my Mother! The E.R. took blood work & an E.K.G. 2 take care of me! I said my Dad was in the hospital too, I think I called him on the phone in the E.R.! They felt sorry that I had 2 take care of my sick Mom & my Daddy was sick 2! Basically, the treatment was a shot cup of purple yucky grape children tylonal & a cup of ice water, I was forced 2 take because I had a fever of 101. Then I was discharged & felt 2 sick & tired 2 even visit my Dad & went strait home 2 bed & woke up 14 hours later 2 go about my normal, miserable cleaning the house life! I called Daddy early that morning he waited on the phone & made me take my temperature again, he was the only 1 in my whole life that ever cared about me! Christian Mc*y Mazze, Any interest in my sisters writing, she wants to share the good times & the bad just to keep my parents memory alive, as you can tell she keeps it real!!! Any thoughts please? Thank you, Larry Berman

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