I laid there for a couple of hours and the strangest thing happened. I was given the nourishing gift of AWARENESS. A slide show played through my mind

I had a frightening nightmare last night. It had many components of situations that left me literally scared to death. A true nightmare that seemed real and terrible. (I have only had two others in my life and I remember them well.)

I laid there for a couple of hours and the strangest thing happened. I was given the nourishing gift of AWARENESS. A slide show played through my mind of aspects of the lives of people that are close to me. It showed me the trying and terrible things that had happened in their lives, as children, teens and as adults. The "video" showed me the same about my life. The things that other people would not know. The things about their lives and mine that caused suffering....that were terrible, frightening, unsettling, upsetting, confusing, hopeless and bad.

I thanked God for the gift of understanding this morning. I actually "understood" behavior and actions that I did not understand before. "Why would he do that?" "How could she say that?" "How could he possibly think that when it is so stupid or ridiculous or not true?" Now, I feel peaceful. Everybody thinks or behaves in a way that is a reaction to their OWN life experiences. No matter what they look like on the OUTSIDE, the inside wounds and life circumstances and events are still driving the bus of their life.

It is only what is happening on the inside emotions and experiences that can give you a clue as to someone's way of handling life experiences at a certain point in their life. The wounds, the hurts, the cruelty of others from far in the past.keep us reacting at times as a 10 year old child in an adult body.

I am not going to try to figure out WHY anymore. For whatever is happening, there is a reason for why that person is the way that they are....and why I am the way I am.

Last night's nightmare was followed by an epiphany - a spiritual awakening that I cannot describe but for which I am grateful right now. It placed me in the zone of compassion and I hope that zone lasts forever. I feel peaceful and happy.

It is my mother's 91st birthday today. Maybe this spiritual insight came from her above!