I KNOW HOW IT FEELS | PART 2
Originally published here: https://fitnessnphysic.blogspot.com
ABOUT EMPTINESS
Dear friend,
I know you feel empty and alone. I know it's your mind that threatens to close your heart and that you feel like your soul left you long ago. I may not know exactly the reasons why, but I know the feeling eats away inside. I can see you slowly giving up who you are, trying gain the acceptance of others. I need you to know that perfection it is not necessary. That your mistakes make you different too amazing. I know that the feeling of emptiness within you is a vacuum that threatens to eradicate all other emotions you are used to feel it. When you wake up in the morning and you are there like "I am compelled to continue with the day's procedures", I understand that you feel like a spectator. It is as if you're looking at someone else's life. And wonders. I wonder how one became that way separated from your body and trapped in your mind. They tell you that you have no feelings, but the truth is, you feel very comfortable. It's never enough. It's always too much. Too much noise, too much pain, just too much and you feel comfortable in it.
It is very difficult to explain how you can have feelings again yet have no emotion at the same time. The problem is no emotions have brought happiness or comfort to it being alone can no longer reach you. Instead, your emotions to divide; you feel uncomfortable, dissatisfied again, you are confused. The place where your heart once was, where butterflies and the joy that once was, is now empty. This, you thought that your purpose in life now seemed meaningless. The feeling of failure remains in a place where prominence and hope once lived. What you once dreamed of now sounds like a never-ending nightmare, a constant whirlwind of indifference again to give up hope.
They tell you to reach out and talk to people who can guide you in the definition of health, who can heal you. But you know, you know that people often disappoint you, and that seems to be the case even though they have never had enough of your time. Or worse. You feel like a burden. When you try to get help from someone, feel like you listened to the conversation that was going on not for you. Shame and guilt burn within, so you never go back.
I understand you are tired.. tired of not being able to be enough, or good enough, to always feel very good. No, not even that. Feeling like you are an option. You guard your heart and build walls round your mind. It is better to keep others out. In this dark pit that is when you finish, I see you walk out into the crowd, smiling, to participate, you pretend to be equal. I know that's not true how do you feel. That you smile because it is what is expected from you. That void is infinite and that is it here with these people it only makes you feel lonely. You do not have it tell me, you don't want to get along with these people. Not at all I understand you. How could they? How could someone else? Now, when you go home at night, the space begins to consume you.
Destruction. That's all there is to it. No happiness, nothing can satisfy you. I see you reach out your phone, browsing aimlessly, searching for something it will make you feel inferior at that moment. Maybe you immersed in your work. See how successful you are, they all say. If only they knew he was working to fill gap. You feel like you have lost your soul. You wonder it wanders ever and ever, or will one day find it the way back to you.
Dear friend, I want you to know that you do not need to live in this way forever. You are the king of your presence, and you have the power to change your life. I want you to know that the gap can be filled, and that even if it is threatening devour to you right now, it won't if you don't let it. Your soul is not lost; it is hidden, within you. Like a little frightened child, choosing to defend himself in the deep break for your psyche. It wants you to find it and return it to its proper place. When you practice meditation, where you are you and you know you, you'll reconnect with the soul.
Please pursue the endless fulfillment. Check and chase with the power to burn your soul. Set goals, meet them, and celebrate your success. Let yourself feel it. All nations. Anger, despair, injury and pain. Feel their violence and lead them to something positive. Some of the greatest works of art were born without a heavy feeling of emptiness. You cannot cure your feelings; you just have to feel it to the other side. Access. You are not a burden. Even though I know you feel disconnected right now, your loved ones will continue to help you fill in the blanks while learning how to do it yourself.
Love them with all your heart. You may not feel like "yourself", you are the most important person in the lives of others, but you are always number one to you. Take care of yourself; be gentle and kind. He has a purpose; it would not have been created if you had not. So, love them for a purpose you have not yet received. Understand other people live their whole lives not knowing what their purpose is, but find joy and happiness in their pursuit of happiness. And finally, dear friend, please do not punish yourself. I promise there is nothing but love and patience can calm the space inside you. Punishment only feeds them darkness. Remember that the moon and the stars need darkness to shine. SHINE, dear friend, SHINE. Always The day will feel warm and bright when you start learning how to enlighten yourself.
Sending you comfort and warmth.
Read Part 1 here: https://fitnessnphysic.blogspot.com