I Have Few Audience Watching my Projects, But I Continue to Do What I Love (A Message for Everyone Who Felt Behind)

I have fallen in love with comic entertainment since I was a little girl and want to pursue making my indie comic for everyone. From webcomics to hardcover, I have been working on my passion projects since my senior year in high school because people love my art and comics. But something was not right. Not because my art and stories were bad, but a general habit of many strangers and companies rejecting small creators.

Let me tell you that making cartoons and comics as a teenager made me think I started a career in 2019. I have been making more because this is what I love the most. But I saw a small audience which first I did not care about because I needed to focus on graduating high school. Since my comics and cartoons were inappropriate, I was scared that they would take them down. But that is okay because this is what I love to enjoy: drawing the most insane and intense storytelling I ever put my hard work down. I threw my personalities, emotions, and experiences onto a blank piece of paper and drew what was going on with my characters and setting.

I do traditional and digital together but there are times I make long-scale webcomics, and the color removes its brightness after I save it to either TIFF or JPEG. It sucks, but still, in my heart, this is something I would continue even though I do love drawing with electronic/ neon bright colors.

As you see these images, not many people watch my comics and even videos on YouTube or Bitchute. I tried not to pay attention to the audience for now, but my heart sank and I will never achieve my goals. I even made books on Amazon. Didn't even get a review or a purchase which resulted in me to learn my mistakes and making a better book for the future. In the end, I love to make as much as my heart desires for my creations if I believe in myself. I am not a virus, spamming artworks online, given to post anytime makes everyone not annoyed. Working a job that is not myself will lead me to health and mental illness. I did not want to die at a young age, even when I went through a mental crisis that I never got a bigger audience. I am not selfish for this, but this has given me a life to live, teach others to be yourself, and bring creativity to share the world. I may put too many links on my Linktree and post my comics every day on Instagram, but that is how I get a wider audience faster.

I felt like I was rushing myself to write and post comics every day, but my inner self told me to stop this because it does not work like that. There are times I change art styles because my original artwork does not fit in the current standards and make unoriginal stories just for an audience; it later grew to be not myself and the only thing I would get a large audience is to add so much of being yourself online with talent and inspiration.

During my college years, I was fascinated that my creations would be a phenomenon after graduation since I was an art major, but my professors and other representatives had taught me nothing but doing classwork not related to my future and life. College for me was not my cup of tea; struggling to pass my classes and having no focus on my passion projects had led me to go spiral over something that would fail me in life. But my friends and myself has supported all the way to make me finish my comics on time. I even participated in our 2023 Senior Art Exhibition where we put our artworks for everyone to see. My parent wasn't there at the time but not only did not see it, but the whole school and others around New Jersey. even when I made business cards for business owners and newcomers to contact me, but it did not get alot of expectations as I imagined. College, for me, is a lie and only focuses on getting hired for profit rather than passion. Even some of my friends couldn't get into their field after college. But again, I continue to write and draw after graduation and pursue a better art career.