I Hate This

If I'm being honest, I hate writing these posts.

They were far more beneficial at the beginning of this challenge, but now that I'm writing upwards of 7 times on a good day, it feels like overkill. So I don't truly know how much they're helping me to process my thoughts, emotions, and progress at this point. That is a pretty significant demotivator.

It easily takes me 30-60 minutes from start to finish to get them published every night. I'd love to repurpose that time for something else. Literally anything else! That's probably the main reason I don't want to do them every night. It's a lot of work and a lot of time I could allocate elsewhere.

That's good

But then I realized that that pain is a massive motivator. I'm desperate to hit my goal faster so I don't have to write this damn thing anymore lol. And I'd get my time back to focus on more important things.

I'm to the point where imagining writing and publishing that very last post and the pure joy that it brings me is part of my daily visualization work. I can picture myself hitting my goal of a million and the thing that excites me the most is that I don't have to write another damn one of these newsletters : )

And don't get me wrong, I love sharing this journey publicly because it motivates other people and provides guidance for others who want similar control in their lives. It's helped me connect with some incredible people along the way!

This whole series will be far more impactful once I am done writing it and proved my theory. It's an accomplishment I'll be proud of til the day I die, and having the whole thing documented to share and reflect on is a beautiful thing. I've already come this far, I'd be stupid to stop now!

But I can still hate doing it. And I can keep complaining about it because it will make my victory that much sweeter in the end. It will keep me motivated and prevent me from being complacent - it will help me hit my goal on time!

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