I feel lost.

Hands At 32 Years of age, Its hard to admit this.

I don’t know what the hell i’m doing - and that is extremely hard for me to say. It’s not like I have been putting self work off.

8 Years ago, i was homeless. A story for another day.. Since that period of my life, I have been “grinding” extremely hard.

Exited a cult, and lost every friend / support i had, while understanding nothing about the world?

• Yup, did that.

Put myself through college as a nontraditional, while working a full time job, and an internship, while getting straight A’s?

• Check.

16 hour days of work, entrepreneurship, self study, business study?

• Yup, done that.

Attempting the Gary V method of “eat shit, eat shit, eat shit and learn to love the taste?”

• Yup, done that. I’ve eaten my shit, and other’s people’s shit for years.

Jumped on the Hermozi bandwagon of metaphorically “sleeping on the gym floor, and working every other hour?”

• Yup, i’ve done that.

Maybe you have too. Maybe you’re just as tired as I was.

3 Months ago, I decided to step away from a career that was making me more money than probably my entire family of 5 people collectively makes. I traded my 60 minute High Ticket Sales calls for something that I have not had in the past 8 years.

Rest…

Time…

A moment to recover.

A period to think.

And the resounding truth is that I feel more lost than ever before. I feel like i’ve woken up from a fever dream that I chose to put myself in - like i drank a psychedelic beverage that was sold to me by snake oil salesman, parading as healers of the human spirit.

And, while i am grateful for these past 8 years of work that have bought me time to not have to work incessantly to survive…

I am now awake.

and I see that constant business that thrust myself into, was a way to avoid Truth (with a capital T).

The Truth.

My truth.

About who i am. What i am.

What i was born for. What lights my soul on fire.

It’s a hard pill to swallow, but I’m putting this out here vulnerably, because I hope that this resonantes with others…

That are waking up - those that are asking questions about their purpose, and if their current actions are in alignment.

No, i dont have anything to sell you (the first time in many years lol)

But i have a deep desire to connect.

to share the human experience,

and to find my tribe of people just like me.

that are figuring it out.

See you tomorrow friends.