I Don't Wanna

I fell asleep putting Stelly to be tonight.

Since I woke up, I haven't been the same.

I'm irritable. More susceptible to the draw of anxiety. I'm easily annoyed by things that have no business affecting me like that.

I just got Lil to bed and the very last thing I want to be doing right now is writing this journal.

In fact, I feel that way a lot of times.

Keeping up with this nightly journal is a lot of work. It's draining. I don't always want to do it. And remember, this is only 1 of 4 of my daily journaling exercises lol

But this one, in particular, takes the longest and requires more focus and energy from me. I can't wait to win this challenge so I can stop writing these.

But that's exactly why it's the best damn thing for me!

It gives me clarity. It helps me process my thoughts. It helps me connect with you. It gives me purpose, strength, and focus.

This journal is an incredibly powerful tool that is doing a lot of the heavy lifting in transforming me into the person I am at the end of this challenge.

That's what this is really all about.

It's not the time, it's the transformation.

Little by little, I make small changes to dial in the version of me that suits me best.

But it's funny. Because even when I hit this goal, there will be a new one. I will forever be on my way towards something greater. And that's pretty cool : )

What I know best, however, is that I am human.

Sometimes I break down and need a fix. And right now is one of those times. I push myself hard because I know I can handle it. But I'm tired.

That's exactly why I need to be conscious of when I need a rest. To give my mind and body the break they need after working hard. Taking care of yourself is the best way to get better, I've found.

So as much as I want to work on some campaign briefs, I'm gonna put my head in YouTube. I'll likely watch some Star Wars : )

Until next week!

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