I don't let the fear of falling keep me from climbing up

When life chooses to happen in its most spectacular messy ways, throwing you off in the most unexpected ways, what do you do?

Less than a year ago, I saw it coming. Like a big black hole that swallowed all I've undertaken to feel balanced and inspired. I felt tipping off my balance, and I went to that place where defensive habits kick-in, and seeking physical and emotional numbness.

How to deal with it?

I usually don't fight back anger and disheartening. These 'moments of void' happen every now and then. This time around, I knew why I felt it, but didn’t accept to let go. I should listen more often to Elsa, the ice queen who keeps yelling “Let it go, let it go!”. Joke aside, I was appalled by the speediness of it all.

They say that life is a journey that must be travelled no matter how bad the roads and accommodations. Well this time, I made sure I had the best crew on-board and an amazing food & beverages manager, to make it a hell of a ride!

Was it easy? No. Did I enjoy the process? Mildly.

I intently chose to come out of isolation; the best remedy against pitiful moments of despair and self-deprecating thoughts. Putting words on it, with a group of trusted people, helped me get my reality checked.

Reaching out to remote acquaintances because I knew they experienced it before, felt paralyzing at first. I fought it hard and long, then I went for it. It turned out to be an eye-opener. Insightful discussions with generous people with no strings attached.

I realised I was looking at a square, while in reamity it was a cube sitting in an open and mined field. So many factors that I hadn't simply figured out until then.

I also stopped bringing myself down about slacking on my routine. I chose to happily and strategically procrastinate (thank you Adam Grant!) by putting a few projects on the backburner. I stopped actively seeking a solution.

And here it is, this morning I came out of my strategic procrastination at 5:00 am and was ready to share this with you.

Sincerely yours,