I don't know what to say

I don't know what to say most of you know I don't speak very often I cried and I'm very hurt I grew up in a white community even if I knew there was prejudice and even if I didn't acknowledge it because I believe in my community what I saw yesterday I've seen before and pretended I didn't I can't and you can't continue pretending that it didn't happen because it did we can pretend it was about politics but we know it wasn't when are we going to acknowledge the truth I have to tell you it's not President Trump's fault he's a leader of people that we thought we're no longer here when we knew better we have watched him for four years put us where we are today but what happened wasn't a surprised because he told us which I admire him for but he knew we wouldn't listen history will always repeat itself we want to learn from it but we don't that's why we are where we are today and it's nobody's fault but our own We Believe racism will not be gone but it's just been festering in our backyard and President Trump gave the approval for it to be woken up and it's not his fault it is the people that have been waiting for this day and they know who they are and we know who they are but we are scared and that's why what happened happened and I'm not saying this to be negative I'm saying this because maybe I am scared I grew up in a white community and what I see Angry majority white people and I don't know why I never been scared until now this is so wrong and the people that think it's not I don't know why it is here 2021 in America this is bad