I am weak

Very Recently, I have been feeling so unfulfilled. This sudden feeling of emptiness seemed to overwhelm me. These days, I ask myself a lot more questions than I have ever done in my life.

“Am I living my purpose?”

“Am I doing what I was meant to do?”

“Am I supposed to be doing more than I am doing right now?”

I have so many things I want to say but I can not find the exact words.  I have so much emotions I want to express, but somehow, I am expected to be strong at all times. I am expected to not show “weakness”.  I have to be strong for my family. Be strong for my Friends. Be strong for my patients. Be strong for my clients. Phewwww!

Today…I have decided to face my weakness. I am weak… I am tired.

…And there is no shame in being weak. Because in my weakness, I know His strength is made manifest. And right now, I chose to be weak. But I am not staying weak.

Yes, I may be slow in attaining goals I have set for myself, but hey, a little delay doesn’t hurt so bad. Its giving me time to contemplate every win. And know that it is no way by any effort of mine. But by His grace and mercy.

Today, I resolve to look out for me more often. I give my self permission to rest when I want to because it is part of the process. I will keep pouring out value to the best of my ability.

I will continue to strive to be a better version of me so I can continue to influence positively to all those around me.

I know that life is in seasons, and I chose to learn the lessons from this season and enter the butterfly season with wings so beautiful and strong for the whole world to see…even though a while ago…I was a larva.