I am stupid...

I am stupid…

A sentence that has been very present in my head over the last few weeks.

You hear me talking about subconscious beliefs all the time.

About how they influence everything in our lives.

Everything.

The life we are experiencing is a result of our beliefs.

It ’s really as simple as that.

The tricky part is, our beliefs are 90% subconscious.

It means they run our lives without us realising it.

Most people will never get that.

Maybe you do and below will make sense to you.?

“I am stupid.”

This is what’s been happening.

Our dad always used to call us (and still calls us) stupid. Not silly. Stupid.

For my Slovak friends, “sprosta.”

Jokingly, of course.

We laugh about it.

We have been laughing about it all our lives (decades), saying things like:

“We wouldn’t know because we are stupid.”

“Of course I am stupid!”

“You know nothing because you’re stupid.”

You get the gist.

All jokingly.

Only that our subconscious mind does not hear it as a joke…..

A few weeks ago, I went to see my parents in Slovakia.

I brought a friend with me to see my family.

We were having lunch, and my dad jokingly said I was stupid.

We all laughed.

All of us apart from my friend.

He looked at my dad and said, “I don’t think she is stupid, I think she is really clever…”

WOW!!!!!!

I stopped laughing and my body went into contraction.

How lovely – you would think…

How lovely that my friend stands up for me, defends me.

But my body had a different idea.

The first thought I immediately had was – how dares he contradict my dad!!!

My dad says I am stupid, so it must mean I am stupid.

WOW again….

WTF?????

My subconscious mind (which speaks through the reactions in our body) felt attacked.

It felt attacked because my friend was challenging a belief I’ve been carrying with me all my life.

Consciously, I might have been persuading myself that I was a smart girl.

But subconsciously – which means genuinely inside my whole system, inside my being – I have always believed that I was stupid.

BREAKTHROUGH.

I allowed the experience at my parents’ to fully come up, and I allowed myself to fully feel it.

I started being aware of how this belief has been influencing my life.

AWARENESS is everything.

Once we become aware of our subconscious limiting belief – this is where the work starts.

A lot has come up in the last few weeks, and I won’t bore you with what I have uncovered.

But a few things started to make sense.

Like how hard it feels for me to accomplish anything that I work on.

It ’s always felt extremely difficult to achieve things.

I always get there, but it’s always super difficult.

It ’s purely because of my determination and drive that I get things done.

But it always feels like an uphill struggle to get there.

NATURALLY.

Because if I subconsciously believe I am stupid – of course things will be difficult.

Stupid people have to work hard to cover up that they are stupid (hello IMPOSTER SYNDROME!!!!).

Stupid people make things up because they don’t want to show how stupid they are.

Stupid people are not accepted, so they pretend a lot – just to feel like they belong.

Of course, all of the above is made up by my mind.

None of it is true.

As I am writing this blog, I feel anger rising up.

I’ve been processing, but it takes time for our subconscious mind to start rewiring the belief it has been living with all its life.

It ’s not as simple as starting to believe that I am intelligent.

That’s why affirmations which are not genuine don’t work.

Unless there is an alignment between the subconscious and conscious mind – affirmations are simply a lie.

Read the above again.

And so the work continues.

It ’s a process of using the tools (again and again and again) I teach my clients and gently recreating my belief and my identity.

A question that is now opening up is:

How would I feel, how would I act, who would I be – if I genuinely believed I was intelligent??

How would my life look?

I am curious myself.

It already feels so much lighter in my body.

And all this just because my friend was trying to tell my dad he did not agree with the joke I’ve been listening to for almost 50 years.

And so the work continues….:-)

Listen to the reactions of your body.

Your body holds much more important information than your mind.

Free yourself by learning the language of your subconscious mind.

I am currently in a deep listening mode.

Listening to myself.

Without any judgement.

Without any blame.

But with a feeling of massive liberation.

As always,

With lots of love.

Michaela xx