How negativity discovered the other side through .........?

This is my transition. Transition of someone whose auto pilot response has been thinking negative, imagining the worst, getting into comparisons easily (either the grass is greener on other side or my grass isn't worthy enough), perceiving obstacles as closures, slipping into frustration over the instabilities my work offers me month by month. I realised a few years that it would get difficult to operate like this perpetually. Thats's when slowly and steadily I start looking for resources to create an internal mechanism for myself to stay positive and on the top of my emotions.

Because I realised.. I don't want to be a manager my whole life- manager of difficult situations, difficult relationships, difficult emotions, manager of bad health or manager of less wealth. I want to be a creator- creator of positive situations, creator of opportunities, creator of good health and creator of abundance in all areas of my life.

And now, I am learning how not to manage the situations life throws at me but to create myself into a being who has many arrows in her quiver to create the life she wants. I slip into the frustration, jealousy,disappointment, general demotivation modes still- But now I deal with it with much more objectivity and maturity than before. I pause , I reflect and then I respond and come out of the rut faster than before.

Am I becoming mentally strong? Am I becoming finally what people say "mature"? I have been pondering over it for quite sometime.. And over this sometime I have had the experience of reading books, attending courses and watching talks by some very wise people. These experiences have left me with food for thought and with most importantly TOOLS. These tools now form the core of my internal mechanism to handle difficult situations or situations not aligned to my vision of my life.

What do these tools do? They make me feel empowered. And empowerment in true sense is not being a slave - especially of the spiralled negative thoughts. New tools have got added - old tools have evolved. What are these tools that I have been using for over two years. This isn't a comprehensive list. In fact, for me this is just the starting of becoming who I envision to be. Here they are

1. Gratitude : No matter how amazing or how hopeless my day is- I start my day by counting my blessings and end my day by counting my blessings. These days, I am grateful for even developing this habit. To start my day by looking at what I am grateful for- shifts my energy instantly to higher and positive frequencies. I have seen and truly experienced now that to concentrate on current abundance is a sure shot way to attract more abundance. Magically, I have seen the act of gratitude help me deal with negative situations much better as my focus on the brighter side is soo high that I don't necessarily get perturbed easily. The more I have had gratitude, the more I have experienced miracles. Right now- the most used words of my day silently and aloud is "Thank You".
2. ?Positive Affirmations : I can't describe in words how amazing I find this tool. Positive Affirmations are positive statements which affirm something to be true. They are positive phrases which you repeat to yourself which describe how you want to be.The theory (which is reality to me) says that when you first start saying your positive affirmations, they may not be true, but with repetition they sink into your subconscious mind, you really start to believe them, and eventually they become your reality. They become a self fulfilling prophecy and actually become true. I have made a list of positive, self-affirming statements for all areas of my life - from health, wealth, family to career, success, happiness and abundance. Reading these aloud to myself everyday and gradually converting it into a chant gives me hope, energy, vitality and positivity like nothing else does. These are affirmations I have written for myself customised to my vision of my future, my dreams, my desires and my expectations. And the more I say them to myself, I know the closer I get to live my life to my greatest potential
3. Incantations: Elder sibling to positive affirmations is how I describe incantations. Incantations are the highest level of self affirming, positive and supremely powerful statements. But, the trick doesn't lie as much in the statements as it does in how you say them. Incantations are to be said like a master, like a lion, like someone very powerful commanding someone. Incantations have to be said with high energy and it has to be felt. You have to embody the statements. It shifts gears and your physiology in seconds. This is the latest tool in my kitty. I discovered this in a course called "Power of your subconscious mind" by Avinash Anand Singh of Blue Dot Transforming. Instead of explaining you - Watch Tony Robbins do it here- Tony Robbins
4. Meditation : If positive affirmations and incantations are about commanding the Universe and your subconscious mind then meditations are about centring yourself to be present in the here and now and just pausing to reflect.There is a different kind of high energy you feel while sitting in the meditative posture which is different than the high energy you feel when you do bungee jumping.My personal experience with meditations has been that it helps me calm down, it helps me look within but it doesn't bring me in low energy state- It takes me to an inexplicable high energy state. Most importantly, it helps me hold space for myself. I am very new to meditation- so I do guided meditations currently. But, my tryst with meditation has started and I am loving it.

My journey into become a creator of my own destiny is on. And I know, this is just the beginning. The magic has just started.