How i spent my Valentine

I can't tell you #how I spent my #valentine without telling you why "how I spent my valentine" suddenly became important. Valentine is a special day; day of love, shared amongst many, tears are shared by many, and many get to see another side of Love. for me, the specialty is not on the day but on the timing. So here is how it all began.

After my #NYSC, I got to Delta state. there I was, like most graduate, great plans but no way to execute. I literally woke up every morning to questions. Real Life questions. who am I? what do I really want in #life? what's my goal? which is a priority? what does the future hold? where am I supposed to be? Life questions that almost threw me off balance, but I fought it back to maintain focus.

My parents would come every day, advising me to apply at different firms. my search for a job became the day-to-day topic whenever a relative, a family friend came visiting. at a time I was worried they would start telling even passer-bys; it was that serious. "My son just finished NYSC o. he needs a job" was a ringtone. everyday ringtone.

I thought I figured out a way to get my self-busy. I began writing down plans that pop up in my head.

"True they were great plans but what is a great plan that has not gone beyond paper; it's merely an Ink" -Ejiro M Ogagah

I was bored. No resources, no motivation, no direction. but I never loosed hope neither gave up on my imaginations.

After my graduating from Uniport, I got a Job in a Construction #company, where I worked as an IT personnel, and then I left just before my NYSC. so when I returned, my parent never failed to remind me. in their words "How about that place you worked before? have you called them that you need a Job?" but this is it about that place. it was a good job, but it's not in line with my dreams. I did that based on hustling. but then, I've got to face purpose.

I have always known I will be a #Filmmaker but just didn't know how to get there. I knew no one, while I was there being a local champion in my drama ministry. I knew there was a need to push but to where? that was the problem. I kept on praying. I know #Portharcourt a lot, I know people,

I could easily just go to Portharcourt to establish, but a move based on what the physical eyes could see is dangerous. except the Lord builds a house, the laborers, labors in vain.

Then one Saturday morning, I got a direction to move somewhere, somewhere I knew just one person, and that person was even leaving with a friend at that time. I carried my bag and left. I remember when the vehicle stopped on the way, there was this lady in the bus. she asked me #why I was traveling, I told her, "I'm going to make #films". As I got there, I called in. then I stayed with him for two long weeks. long because, I was going from place to place, firm to firm, search for jobs, but in the wrong places. I knew I was rejected in some, while in some, I don't even know whether I was rejected or not. Lol.

Well during this period, I learned,

Not every rejection is as a result of I ncompetency , most are because of space; they don't have enough space to accommodate your P otentials . - Ejiro M Ogagah.

I remember a man once asked me "What kind of Job are you looking for?" I told him "Media. something about filmmaking" then he said, "what did you study?" I said "Microbiology" "why did you study it?" I replied "My Parent" then he said, "Now that you don't have a media certificate, how will you get it?" I replied "It's God. he brought me here in the first place"

I got a number of a Film #director from #Instagram. I called him. in his words, he said "I usually don't take calls on this number, and i don't know why i have taken yours. but I have a question for you. how old are you.?" I told him then he said, " Is this what you want?" I said yes. and he said "A man that can not find his purpose from the age of 24 to 28, should forget it," He asked me to get a laptop to start from editing. at this time, my laptop is broken, and i had just 10 thousand naira with me. I began calling and asking friends and family but couldn't raise enough to get a Laptop. A Laptop! I missed that opportunity.

At a time i became confused; depression almost creeped in. but in the misdst, i would ask my self, "What Next?" it's a question that snaps me back to reality, it gives me the drive to push. I am here now but what next? Things may not be right but what next? instead of dwelling in the unpleasant situation, what next? instead of becoming depressed, what next?

While i was waiting for that media job, i managed to persuade a guy to help me shoot a short film, after rain of seizeless insult from him. when he sent me the video, i couldn't watch the video twice. it was terrible! but then i was still pushing. Until I applied for a job in a media company. glory to God, I was taken. I began with a Production assistant, then to Producing a Reality tv project, then to #Supervising a Series #TheHeiress then February 14, 2018, I found myself, Co-directing the movie, Blood Letters.

On that Valentine day, the day of love, I was fulfilling dreams. I looked back and saw a journey I never knew I would travel, a path I never knew its destination, a hope, I was afraid to hold. i'm sharing this, not that i'm there yet, but to say, In all, only God can place a Man where he belongs.