How do we heal our wounds? "Forgiveness"

When people hurt us intentionally or unintentionally, we are left with wounds within our heart and soul. We go through a series of emotions trying to deal with pain.

It is necessary for us to to deal with the pain, and only then are we able to release ourselves, from the pain that ensnares us. Many people opt for mental blockers, medication, or alcohol , smoking to combat the negative energy.

Through a short period in my life, I lost a parent, suffered health issues and heartbreak. How did I cope? This is what took place. I isolated myself for a while in my safety zone which was my home. I spoke to no one. I ate little, cried released the pain over and over again. I read books on human behavior,this gave me a better understanding of others and myself. I had no television or outside influences.

Even when friends called me up, I reluctantly answered , I knew that they were there to help me, but I did not feel like talking. I constantly kept in touch with my friends via messages, their concern was greatly appreciated at the time, but I needed to be alone. The outpouring of grief was a process that I had to deal with.

Every night as I sat alone, I prayed to God , looking for answers, there was only silence. In that silence I still never felt alone, there was a presence there.I kept saying to God why me? Then I thought why not me? Gods battles make us warriors not physical strength to be seen, but inner strength . Once that inner strength is built up, you are able to move into a higher level of mental strength.

My heartbreak was one of despair, and great loss. Physical violence, also used for the purpose of gaining citizenship in Australia. I went through many steps of hardship and trials for this person, and taken advantage of also money taken, then one day, bags packed and they were gone after a period of 6 years. This person opened my heart for his selfish purposes.

This was the greatest betrayal of trust, I have ever encountered. After a period of 5 months, I started to feel some release. I let go of the pain, I felt relief.I began to know that I was free, and that I must remove all bitterness, If I did not , the seeds would have grown within me and ultimately destroy the beautiful human being that I am. Every step of the way , God was within me , holding onto me.

I then faced this person, he had been very sick and life was very challenging for him, of course I knew this was Karma. All the pain that he inflicted upon me, was coming back to him. I could not hold the anger or pain, it was now gone. For me it was facing the lion in the arena, looking at me.

Then the doors of light appeared before my eyes and life was taking a new direction for me. To another country and new challenges, the outpouring of love was reentering my life once again. I completed 2 Diplomas in that time of distress. A doorway opened and I did not need to knock, so I knew this was God, saying to me , You are loved unconditionally. In this I also knew, God was blessing me, but by blessing me, I knew I had to be merciful with this person. When I did this, my life changed forever.

All negativity was released, I was a caterpillar transformed into a butterfly , given new wings to fly. I wanted to share this with all of you. I have only touched on a little of my story. I want to empower others to know, you can cope, move forward. Never ever give up, keep your faith with you at all times. God will answer you when you are ready. He knows when the transformation has occurred and you are ready to move forward.

The power you have inside of you is limitless, when you go through a series of trials in your life, you find that power and strength. Throughout the time of my grieving for the loss of my father, my health and my heartbreak, I never reached for any crutch, but my God, who is all I will ever need in my life. Humans disappoint and let you down, remember one thing . God will never leave you . He just prepares you for something greater in your life.

Just never give up and always keep your faith.

God Bless you and help you overcome your trials that you face in your lives.

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Tess Martin