How to Breathe Again

I have served as a peer counselor throughout my life, assisting individuals who have struggled with stress. After completing my education as a Life Skills Coach, Human Relations and family Counselor in 2000, I transitioned into a professional role where I provided others with support, coaching, and guidance. In 2005, I was a 24/7 caregiver as an independent government contractor, which lasted until the middle of 2007.

During this period of being a caregiver, I faced a complete and overwhelming burnout. Despite the warning signs, I chose to ignore them and refused to seek help. As a trained caregiver, I believed I could handle everything independently. I was well aware of self-care but failed to apply it to myself.

Allow me to elaborate on the devastating losses I experienced within a span of two and a half years. In August of 2006, I lost my mother, followed by the loss of my cherished client in March of 2007, and finally, the passing of my father on Christmas Eve in 2008. These consecutive losses triggered a series of destructive events, ultimately leading to my complete burnout. I felt lost, and hopeless, and even contemplated suicide. At one point, I found myself on a ferry, waiting for the midway point, considering jumping overboard.

However, as I stood there, I questioned what would happen if I changed my mind halfway down. I gazed at the flickering lights of the Vancouver Skyline on the horizon and realized that even if I changed my mind in the water, it would be an arduous swim back to safety.

With this newfound realization and the grace of God, I managed to shift my mindset and alter how I responded to stress. I picked up my coat, put it on, and returned inside. I didn't openly weep; instead, I sat there, feeling somewhat numb yet also aware of my existence. I understood that I needed to adapt to this new phase of life, a life that had brought me to my knees.

I closed the chapter on that particular phase of my life and embarked on a new chapter. This blog chronicles my entire experience and how it transformed me.

My wish is that my experiences, my struggles, my fears and also my dreams, and my hopes, will help you, the reader, to realize that even when are experiencing your darkest moments, that you are not alone, that there is another way out, I know, I was there …

If you've faced challenging moments, found your way through, or are currently navigating rough waters, we want to hear from you. Share your reflections and thoughts, or drop a #Hope in the comments.