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Over the past few month’s I have been withdrawing from some medication I had been on for almost 13 years since being seriously ill with Hepatitis A. How I got it we will never know but it put me in hospital with near liver failure on Christmas Day and scared me like nothing has scared me before.

A couple of other things have happened professionally and personally and then this…. Good ol’ Covid19.  I think it is pretty safe to say, my head was near to falling off and rolling down the hill!

So, I have needed to take some drastic action and the first thing to go was all Social Media apart from LinkedIn (obviously)….

Instagram and Facebook got deleted from my phone and I have now taken to what I call ‘essential communication tools’ like Facetime, Messenger, Zoom and Whattsapp although I have cleared out quite a few groups that are just no longer relevant.

Things have become more personal and I feel like I have entered a period of healing that I knew deep down needed to happen before all this craziness but ‘I didn’t have time!’

I didn’t have time to call my Aunt that I had not seen since Christmas, I didn’t have time to really understand what my son did at school on a daily basis, I had forgotten how to communicate effectively with my partner…. No, I was tirelessly trying to ‘Flog a dead horse’ and keep up the pretense that I am fine, ok, keeping calm and carrying on!! You know the drill.

I now feel like I am finally healing….. I have spoken to many people over the past week or so about this and they feel the same.

Don’t get me wrong, what is happening right now is horrendous, heart breaking and very scary for each and every one of us and I pray to god that people I know or indeed myself do not get struck down by this deadly disease however, I can not help but feel a strange calm starting to come over me as I feel an awakening happen all over the world….

We can’t have everything and anything anymore and it feels good! The world is no longer my oyster, I cant just have them clothes in 24 hours, I cant just book a plane to Spain for the weekend and I cant just go and eat out instead of cooking… I cant have what I want when I want….

'Keeping up with the Jones’s' no longer has a relevance.

I am starting to feel a sense of love and appreciation for my home and my surroundings, my family and my friends. 

I have been trying on clothes in my wardrobe and actually have a couple of things that still fit! I have starting cooking and researching nice meals I can make for my family.

I am starting to stop and smell the coffee and it actually smells really really good.  Much better than Costa, who would have thought!

During the next few weeks don’t flog the dead horse…. Sharpen your tools and smell some coffee ??