Grief

Last weekend, I mourned the passing of my elder aunt. I still can't forget her smile and hugs whenever I attended any family function.

My experience with grief came about 6 years ago when my brother in law passed away out of a sudden due to a heart attack. During that time, I was on a holiday in Edinburgh, Scotland with my Amma(mum) when that happened. My Amma and myself was distraught and we scrambled to the airport to take the flight back home. When I came back to Singapore, it was not easy coming to terms with what happened. It was a very tough period for the entire family.

While all these happened in the background, I got the news that I was awarded the Course Directors Prize for my masters. I was not sure whether I could be happy at that time of grief. What broke my heart was niece who was 10 years old put her favourite toy in his coffin for burial. I just broke down at that point. At that point, I decided to come back to Singapore to steady the ship though I had dreams to pursue my Phd in innovation. Thinking back now, I knew I made the right decision to prioritise my family over my dreams.

My experience with grief has only made me stronger but has helped me relate to people better. It is never easy only time will heal the wounds.

I am #vikaraman

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