Good-by Ayesha Daughter Time to go into Grave

Seven-year ago when it diagnosis that I have cancer in my large intestine 

 When it confirms I am cancer Patient at the time my daughter your very small, my first thoughts were of you my daughter Ayesha and your brothers Hamza and Anas, I also afraid of my wife but I know she can handle the situation but when I thought about my kids my heart was filled with fear. … Fear that you all would have to grow up too fast, that you would have to watch your father suffer, that I wouldn’t be around to protect you, that you would have to accept a life without a father during all of the years when you would need one the most. It was heartbreaking for me to face any possibility of not being able to watch you grow and enjoy life’s moments with you. There were days when these fears paralyzed me, and I had to fight all of my instincts to give in to despair.

You may remember these days a little differently, and I hope that’s true. It’s a father instinct to protect her child and, in my case, this meant putting on a brave face and pushing away any negative thoughts. I wanted to show you how to be I read the word “steel magnolia.” That means fighting with all you have while maintaining as much grace and dignity as possible.

The support of my family and friends gave me the strength to maintain a positive attitude. The phone calls, text messages, I am blessed you have your mother, Uncles because it giving me satisfaction that they take care of you and your brothers I know a lot of people fighting with cancer battle without the type of support I had.

There are so many things I wish for you: I want you to achieve your potential and find your passion, to travel the world, to serve others with gladness, to find a partner in life, and to always keep learning. I want you to have challenges and have to overcome obstacles; challenges build character and strength. I do dream of a world, though, where cancer isn’t your specific “challenge” or burden to bear. Most of all, I want you to experience the joy of having your own heart “walk-around” as you build your family When I imagine your future, my sweet daughter, my heart is full. Now after facing the second attack in the first attack only on the tumor but in secondattackits5 tumor after 12 chemotherapy 3 unactive two alive, now there is no space for operation Dr almost refuse its a time say good-bye to my family but its very tuff to think but no one d anything it is my Allah who decide it and what he decides its always good for that person and his family but no worries are leaving but Allah is here to protect you he remains with you a all the time he takes care you and your brothers, he also gives courage to your mother, so Good buy the little doll I don,t know when my time comes no one know it but when all door are close in medical science it means any coming minute is your last minute, I request from both of my sons take extra care of my dolls is very small she needs my love but knows my son fulfill the gap and I hope they never leave you alone all the best  

your father 

Zahid Sharif