GO SOMEWHERE SAFE AND PRETEND

GO SOMEWHERE SAFE AND PRETEND

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First things first. Arial. It saves me about twenty seconds; instead of using times new roman. So just for kicks. I thought I’d let you know, that I am trying all new things. Also; I added ME, to the Magazine Title. Just to separate myself from the crowd.?

Lets start here. Thank you all for passing by. I know that you are busy; most of the time, as you are building your very own/ unique/ luxury/ lifestyle brand.?

I have written over twelve books in the last three months. I kind of reached this plateau; un expectedly. I was so focused, and just continued to implement; all new systems in my life.?

I am dealing with a lot. As I am balancing things out; I am also going through a recalibration process. I am shell shocked; as these past times have pullled me in every single direction possible. I am a loner in that sense. I like to figure things out on my own. Yesterday I had a major panic attack. It confirmed to me, that I was over my limits.?

I am anemic. Low iron in the blood. Lack of sleep, nutrition and hydration. An advanced level of extreme weight loss; rapidly, and an over capacity to fuction under extreme circumstances. My workouts; are full body and include mental exercises. I am a Cyborg.?

As amazing as that all; is. It is not sustainable. And I know that I am now reversing the bennefits, and the effects. I am hurting myslef. I am already going, going, going; non stop. All day; everyday I am chasing the relentless pursuit of perfection like Lexus.?

Last night; and during the passing of a close family member. It, was all too much, for me. I almost had a heart attack; myself. I had a panic attack. I felt shortness of breath and anxiety. I was un easy; sitting or laying down. I could not concentrate. I felt horribly. I reached out to my older brother; just to get through the night.?

I managed to get some rest; as the sun was rising. I slept a few hours; until my family awoke me. They were making so much noise; I was still disorientated. I woke up slowly, and started to do my day to day activities. I then reached out to my loved ones. Here; we arrive at the core of the discomforts, of this situation. My family is extremely abusive; all the time. This is from, all of them; by the way. Its like playing connect four; to have peace of mind.?

Eric Thomas taught me well. Here is the formula. I pray that it is able to help you.?

If you are facing any situation(S). No matter what the circumstances are, or may be. It does’nt matter the who, what or why is? Some things you are in control of. And others you are not. What you are in control of is; you. Mr. Thomas inclined, for us to “go somewhere safe”; and pretend. If you have problems at home with a disfunctional family (like I do); go somewhere “safe” and pretend that you have the “Best” family? on earth! Like I do. Go somewhere peaceful and just be; yourself. It is embarrassing to talk about my family but, I have to do it. Its therapy for me. It helps me heal; so that I can deal with them. This is how you can power through; and move forward.?

Kobe Bryant said, that when ever he faced any unknown variable, limitation, or challenge; he would go to the mount Rushmore of greatness.?

He called it, “Greatness Mountain”.?

He would go and spend time with the legendary greats. He would call Jordan, Magic, Russell and others; to gain insights, to improve/ upgrade himself.?

We could all see this in action; on the basketball court, each and every day. He got better; each game. I admire this strategy. These two basic examples contain the advanced wisdom you will need to overcome things. For me; my family is aging. Their mental capacities are diminishing; because they are in a different phase in life. Their receptors of reality, are diminishing. They do not see the urgency in me; negotiating a 5,000 song catalog.?

My music catalog is Priceless.?

It is my lifetime achievement.?

It is my legacy.?

Period.?

I have a GrandDaughter; “NOLANY” on the way here, November 25, 2024. Four months and four days; from the time of writing. I can clearly see; all of my family’s struggles. I can clearly identify; that I am the last hope of this generation, for us to establish “Generational Wealth”; again. We just lost our entire fortune in 2005. Twenty Years have passed. Deaths. The markets crash. The financial crisis. Wars. and a Pandemic. Back, to back, to back, to back.?

I managed to pull through and design the car of the future. Autonomous Systems. Medical Systems. Wearable Technologies. For both; civilian applications and military. As an artist; I changed the Music Business. What more can I say??

I Authored over 24 Books! And I am still inspired; to write every day.?

My family; has started a new legion. They have taken many new paths to establish themselves. What they forgot to do, or prioritise is in, assisting the rest of the clans. This has created a division. It is based on the credit card game, combined with the tax write off game. They feel elite. This is an act of War, against the rest. And a declaration of a sustained War for dominance.?

There are several factions in my family. My clan had been down for some eras. But, we have the lead now; thanks to me. I am constantly looking for ways to regroup; literally, so that they can join me. Once again; all things would go back in to a better, balance. But, it only gets worse; at each interval. I reached my limit. I do not want to wage “financial” wars; among the family. But, I am constantly pushed against a wall. I am the closest to God. And I have put myself in a position to adjust our entire situation; as a family. I feel at times; that I should “forget” them “financially”. But, I know that; although it is, a financial improvement, at this moment, it will not be sustainable. This includes, emotionally and psychologically; as well. I do not want to assiciate my success, with neglecting them; for their disease, sickness, torment, lack of education and ignorance.?

I want to ask God things like? Do we need to renegociate our Understanding? Is this a Gift or a Curse? Is it my Honor or my Responsibility? Are you, burdening me, because of my pursuits? Or are you delaying my sucesses, in order to show me; the reasons to, “not” help them? Sometimes; I just don’t understand. Do I have to pass on; this burden? If it is a burden? Or, what am I to learn; from all of this??

Everyday; I give them my best. I try to stay grounded. I know enough, not just; to cut them “off”. But, never in my fourty one years of youth; have I come closer, to pulling away emotionally. God would punish me; if in my heart of hearts, I walked away from them entirely. They do not foresee what I fear. My fear, is that even after financial stability for the “entire” family. We may still deal with these “emotional” challenges. It is a mental disease; that “requires” professional help. It is just a “taboo” of our culture. Our culture is not sound, on financial literacy; sadly.?

At least; not yet.?

As an Entrepreneur, you have to be consistant. When I set forth plans; I convery them to the world, through all of my contents. I have multiple projects; running at once. Consistency is everything. I may have shared/ showcased an Investment for the year 2024. Three months later; we may have another conversation. They may say things; like. Are you still working on that project? And I am like; I told you that it would be for the entire 2024-year! You forgot? Already! That fast? That is a record right there!

So. I am finding myself constantly, renegotiating the family terms; over and over again. Different Cycles are Created. Every few months is quantified, by calculating every few weeks. This grows to every few days; and then it becomes a daily debate. There is a clear struggle mentally, and emotionally. These struggles are also financial, and emotional; all at once. I see a clear cut chance at Victory. They do not know what a War Time Leader is; or A Peace Time leader. They do not fully understand; what the essential parameters are.?

We are not speaking the same language.?

There is already a Comunication Problem.?

Deppression runs rampant. There is heavy Drug Use, and Alchoholism. At the same time; many of us are “over achievers”. We are over compensating for “poverty”??

Why even deal with them??

I say the same thing. Its my Great Grandmother. Its my Grandparents. Its my Parents. I do this for them; and God. My legacy Goals. My decendants. My Children.?

I am A Man Of My Word.?

I made a Promise To God.?

I intend to keep; forever, eternally.?

I have to go somewhere safe and pretend; that I have a perfect family. When they see my content online; they will even use that to say things like. You seem extremely happy there! Its shit like that; that gets under my skin.?

What I really want to say to them is; You missed the point. My laterals, such as social media are to be pleasant to watch/ consume; and proffessionally presented. Duh. That is my new favorite word. That is business; in that sense. But, being the President of my family; is a completely different responsibility.

I may decline; running for Family President for 2025.??

My Grandfather left a huge position to be filled. Our family has struggled for Guidance Since 2007.?

To function; I had to create my own family. Even in business; most of my business partner became my family. Just like my childhood friends; they are my closest loved ones. They earned the Right To Be My FAmily. We are starting our own family. OUr kids will have everything needed to succeed in the future.?

I hope that this formula helps you achieve, and overcome emotional barriers. I am learning little by little every day.?

Thank you all. I love you All. God Bless.??

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