To get unstuck, we must allow.

I felt really stuck today. More stuck than I have been in a while. Stuck and staring. I stared at the shower. I stared at my closet. I stared at my inbox. I stared at my many notifications. I stared at my children’s schedules. I stared at my phone and the dishes piled in the sink.

So, I did something I never do. I decided to fall. I can always fall back on the rock in my life. My rock. And I did. I fell back. I felt weak and alone and like I could feel the darkness creeping right next to me. Due to past experiences, that scared me. But my rock was there to guide me to a place of calm. In falling back on my rock, I fell forward.

I clawed through the sand that surrounded me; it suffocated me like a heavy cloak draped on my shoulders. I felt as if there was little to no room to inhale and exhale. My fears weighed on my chest and constricted my airways.

My rock was there and showed me the way to the light, holding my hand while I breathed and dug through the sand to find my gem-- my diamond of sanity and security that when found, glowed with an emerald hued essence I’ve never seen before.

I held it to my mind’s eye as I was instructed and then I held it to my heart. I came back to my breath. With my eyes closed and my gem held tightly to my beating heart, I was able to breathe as my airways opened, the weights lifting off me one by one. My rock stood by me.

I felt really stuck today, yes. But now I am not. I am free of the heavy darkness because I allowed. I allowed all of it to be and once I allowed, I was able to release it into the universe and realize that I will not be stuck forever. I am my rock and my rock is me.